Tuesday, August 31, 2004 jus as e title of dis post suggest....im in a state of imbalance....ahahahha....actualli no la....jus tink tt barney is sooo brave....no....shld b COURAGEOUS...tts e word yea?!?! well done barney....u deserve a pat n e back 4 digging out all ur courage n walk n 2 burger n sae tt 3 WORDS!!! pple dun anyhow tink....its "happie teacher's dae".....(wat were u tinkin!??!)...ahhahaha....wah...nw alreadi these 3 words....e next time i wonder WHICH 3 WORDS man!!! hahaha...i had gr8 fun goin 2 sch todae....no regrets...e celebration programme was commendable....at least 27th SC is beginning 2 improve....wae 2 go!! but e best was still watchin barney's 'show'....wah...those of u whu missed it....u realli wasted man!! hahaha.....hmmmm....barney realli cannot slp tonite le....btw e A6 class foto movie was so nice watchin together.....even though took gr8 effort n energy 2 complete it....it was all worthwhile seein e fun n laughter derived frm watchin it together....how sweet was tt....an element of lameness plus 'gandong-ness' in it....A6...i mean 03A6....u guys jus rawks man....realli had e fun-nest teacher's dae todae....sure gonna miss all of u pple......n yar.....jus now went J8 eat swensen's TOPLESS 5........mayb sum1 shld jus invent tt 'tuo diao' song 2 b put into e candle so tt when lighted it will play 'tuo diao' instead of e usual 'happy bdae'....so like tt den got ambience when eating TOPLESS 5 ma....hahhaah...pet n i came up wif a NEW name 4 MY FAVOURITE 'sticky chewy chocolate' ice cream.....it will now b officially a NEW product by e B.L.O.G Pte Ltd called 'sticky chu-YOU chocolate'...isnt tt a creative name...i tot so too....i jus knew it...tt u will agree wif me....dun DENY!!! ahahahah....arh yes....thanks 4 e POOH bear biscuits hor barney....sooo 'ke-ai' i mus constantly emphasize...as u all noe...its jus like me la....!!! actualli y did u suddenly buy me tt?? i was rather shock 2 receive it yea!! ahahahah......aniwae like it lots.....thanks still!!...well....i tink its time 4 me 2 stop tokin so much shit.....everytime wif pet also tok so much shit......ahahahah......need 2 go 4 cell grp soon.....meanwhile pple dun miss me....!! hahahahah!
& Monokuro Boo ;
2:39 PM
Saturday, August 28, 2004 wow hoh...wat an eventful dae...started off with an uninteresting note by attending damn it maths lect dis mrng at 8am....bloody sian lor....wah kaoz....go sch 2 slp in lect.....couldnt help it at all....veri veri tired....fancy me waking up early in e mrng at 7am 2 GO SCH.....gdness gracious me....its a sat lor....waste my time n energy.....cummon.....its supposed 2 b a '5-days' week system in s'pore lor....den after e disgustin maths lect went 2 sch canteen study wif sharon....xs bought lunch n den we all ate n do work.....miary was also in sch....but barney once again pang seh me...!! but nvm.....watever tt happened jus nw in town made up 4 everything....hahaha....im sure barney cannot slp liao...hahaha....but i mus sae im so proud of u.....dis is called COURAGE...hahaha...but of coz mus 'zhuo ren zhuo dao di'....since alreadi made e 1st move den continue la.....(4 those of u out dere if u dunno wat im tokin about nvm....u can c 4 urself soon if u r an NYJCian....i shall NOT n CANNOT sae nw....so sorri...ahahhaahh!) wah......barney.....'ni zui pang'.....never come across such an incident n e onli person tt can attempt n succeed on such tings is u n onli YOU....ahahahha....all e best....dun disappoint me leh...i dying 2 attend sch lor!!! hahahah....aniwae i listening 2 alex to's "tuo diao"....wah...tt song is stuck in my head.....it goes "tuo diao tuo diao tuo diao tuo diao......" realli is tuo everything lor....ahahahah....oh no.....actualli im super xcited 4 barney....cant help it...hahahah......y mus so LIKE TT.....ahahaha....gosh....tink dis is jus so amusing n xciting....4 once dis year im yearning 2 go sch.....heeheez....ok....calm....nt 2 get so xcited.....later spoil all e fun den let e cat out of e bag den no fun le....ahahhaha......hmmm.....y is time passing so slowly...quick let me go back 2 sch....im dying 4 SEPTEMBER 2 arrive...!!!hahahah....
& Monokuro Boo ;
10:06 PM
Thursday, August 26, 2004 wow...i feel so recharged all of a sudden todae in sch...woke up realli earli at 6am n was like super 'awake' lor....guess i made e rite choice of nt goin 2 sch on wed....served as a veri well-deserved break 4 myself i guess...at least lessons werent tt bad todae afterall....so mayb thurs arent so horrendous as ive tot of it 2 b so....breezed thru todae realli well...apart frm e EM-barrassing moment of e history presentation todae.....wah kaoz....super paiseh....my face dunno throw where man....so shitified....but at least im done n over wif e dumb project.....1 big load off my heavy n bogged down shoulders.....left sch almost as immediately at sch ended at 310 todae.....headed down 2 AMK library 2 meet barney n jian.....reached dere at 345....den dis 2 pple wanted 2 eat so left e library at 4pm...so in e end i onli managed 2 complete 1 part of e maths qns....tt was indeed hw pathetic my situation was...haiz....but nvm....went 2 eat yong tau foo at S11 foodcourt....nt realli fantastic but quite cheap la....so also quite worth i guess.....i was rather full after eatin half of it la....well thanks 2 jian 4 ur treat on drinks....so nice of u indeed...hahaha....den tok so much crap until i was like super pist off....barney n jian......veri gd arh!!! combined forces 2 out tok me la....ok fine nvm.....dis type of ting gt RETRIBUTION wan...hahaha....den after eating at 5pm...went barney's hse do work......was basically tokin away more den doin work....quite as usual la.....but nt 2 bad coz i managed 2 finish up my maths hmwk....poor barney...so mani telecommunication distractions tt i tink her target 2 complete AT LEAST 10 qns can nv b attained by tonite....hahaha....well i stayed till 815 when mum called ask me go 4 'dinner cum supper' at harbourfront macs....so left barney's place.....thanks barney...4 walking me 2 e bus stop even though i noe u r super duper hungry....like always.....but i appreciate e effort taken....hahaha.....got down 2 harbourfront at 915....exact 1 hr....met mom dere den went 4 supper together....tok crap 2 her a bit n started gossiping bout sum passer-by in macs....c hw my mom n me can get so bimbotic when together tokin bout others.....haiz....tts so lame....hahaha.....n here im home nw.....watched a bit of S'pore idol jus nw....e results were satisfactory.....nt 2 bad....kind of expected....hmm...aniwae im feelin realli tired...goin 2 rest soon....*yawnz*....hope tt tml will b fruitful n fun.....heeheez!
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:32 PM
Tuesday, August 24, 2004 hmmm....crap dae again.....totalli drained out frm e moment i woke up or shld i sae DRAGGED myself up dis mrng......sian arh.....another schooling dae...decided 2 self declare a dae off frm sch tml coz its a total waste of my time 2 attend sch...jus like ani other daes!!! i wanna stay hm n mug....goin 2 sch jus makes me veri veri tired n brain drain....i cant possibly study n mug wif full concentration when my brain is like dead most of e time in sch.....so tml slp a bit more den wake up n mug.....stayed in sch after GP tutorial 2 study todae....met yogi in e library n did sum maths until her lessons came at 410...of coz in between tt time i was alternating frm e table of cousin, long n miary coz i needed help 4 differentiation....i dunno wat happened 2 miary coz she was laughing over absolutely NUTHIN....mayb tts a sign of pre-exams stress....c wat education can do 2 us indeed.....den went 2 geog rm 2 continue join long, pet, cousin, liping n xs 2 study.......of coz as usual much distraction instead of studyin.....food was once again e biggest temptation tt ive yet 2 overcome......went down 2 canteen wif cousin n pet in less den 15 mins since i stepped into geog rm....n as we all noe....given e greedy habit of pet......n under peer influence....both of us end up eatin fried rice wif lotsa side dish at 435pm.......n cousin was jus staring so hard at me eatin e delicious mushroom but she herself eatin toast......too bad....hahaha....den after eatin....e greedy pet still went 4 dessert...obviously i was jus 2 discipline so din eat.....hahaha.....went back 2 geog rm 2 revise i shld call it instead of study...but end up tokin bout delicacies n holiday destinations.....c la....can never make it 2 study when we r all together....jus got 2 much 2 tok....cant stop.....but at least i finished my maths differentiation tutorial 17 la.....so nt 2 bad.....i realli cant wait 2 go 4 holz man.....wah...every1 was like so xcited...guess we're jus buildin castles in e air coz exams nt even here we tink of post exams plan liao....damn shit....hahaha....okie aniwae i needa go mug hist liao......if nt i'll nv get started n done n over wif it....nitez 2 all.....
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:07 PM
Monday, August 23, 2004 so mani why why why in my head.....did i realli do my best 4 e recent maths spring test or not??? i practiced so much n i knew my facts inside out frm e front 2 e back....but wat happened again i asked myself??? is an A grade realli enuf 4 me not?? or do i wan sumting more.....yes...i tink i wan smthg more den an A grade....i expect a lot.....yes....sound a little psycho n too much but den if i put in tt amt of effort i expect e same amt of results as well....so can any1 tell me when isit enuf 2 excel in my academic subjects...esp maths....so wat if its a "good" remark.....i dun need tt.....wat i wan is "excellent"...not gd....i dun wanna jus b gd...i wanna excel....worst of all was tt i realli tink i dun deserve wat i got la......super sore about it....haiz....i tink im jus stress up la....tts y i took dis test results so seriously....shucks man....promos is less den 2 mths away.....n i havent been revising seriously.....running short of time....oh gosh....yucks....i hate e mounting pressure.....it seems so near yet so far again....tell myself cannot slack but i always do....tell myself i mus b more serious n start revision but i always dun....pist wif myself la....WTH.....wake up......i need 2 WAKE UP.....oh man....i do feel psychotic.....2 dream or not 2 dream....if i dare 2 dream big i'll tend 2 b veri competitive n nw i do feel tt competitiveness tts fast edging over......oh no....GOD......help.....cannot go back 2 my old self.....i dun wanna lose e essence of living a life n jus study but nuthin.......
& Monokuro Boo ;
8:48 PM
Sunday, August 22, 2004 wow...i actualli woke up at 930 dius mrng....absolutely impressed by my strong willpower har?!?! heeheez....reached church at 1030.....half an hr earlier den xpected....so proud of myself....but den....i reached so early also a bit bo liao....sit ard n stone coz i realli veri tired....lack of slp la...brought a stack of notes along wif me coz intended 2 go jurong east regional library study wif ivan after church......well of coz i went lunch after svc...den headed straight down 2 library la.....but guess wat man......e stooopid library was overcrowded......cant even find a proper place 2 study.....den when i finalli found a sofa 2 write on.....dis dumb library person came 2 kao us 4 studyin in e library.....so bo bian....gotta leave coz NO STUDYING on weekends....walau.....sian leh!!! so i went 2 borrow 2 SEA history text....at least cld find e books i wanted....so afterall e trip nt realli wasted la.....but dis 2 bks realli thick man.....wow.....when wld i ever master e art of readin it man?!?! well nvm.....'zai jie zai li'.....i'll do it!!! hahaha....sounds rather psycho hor....yucks....okie nvm....aniwae disappointing olympics table tennis results.....li jiawei din win afterall....so is winning realli tt impt afterall?!?! but in sports u either win or lose rite.....dere's no second best i guess.....if u lose den jus 2 bad lor....guess s'pore will jus nv make it in e olympics.....n barney is rite.....world no. 1 is jus 2 gd......hw 2 compete man....forget it la...jus balik kampong n slp better la.....forcing false hopes on ourselves aint goin 2 work out at all....instead of blogging here i tink i shld b watchin tt PM speech rally crap leh....but den veri sian....dun feel like watchin la....i sure slp wan lor....doesnt appeal 2 me at all leh....so y act interested when im not at all appealed!!! nt a fruitful dae todae.....felt all motivated n ready 2 do my best but den in e end idled my dae away......sianz arh....cannot go on like tt man....gotta do smthg bout dis....tink tonite mus sum up european hist revision on nationalism b4 i start 2 relax again...haiz....veri typical sundae i guess.....but life is still gd la....alrite.....a new beginning...a new start tml.....hope dun get butchered by PE dept tml man....apart frm tt everything shld b quite ok ba!!!
& Monokuro Boo ;
8:28 PM
Saturday, August 21, 2004 haiyo.....im realli wondering do i realli luv history nt leh.....im so sick of crapping up essays esp when dis time round need 2 crap up 1200 words 4 SEA hist...wah kaoz.....faced e damn com frm 3-7pm.......i tink my com overheated le.....1 fine dae its jus gonna blow up n me 2......isit e heavy workload tts causing me 2 dislike history more n more??!? sux la.....i hate it when my saturdays r jus wasted in front of e com like tt.....realli veri shit lor.....n i gaf myself a break from 5-6pm....watched li jiawei's olympics table tennis match.....wah.....wat a stunning match.....so wasted.....i realli feel so sad tt she lost.......it was like so close lor.....haiz.....guess mayb she was over confident......or mayb e stoopid korean woman was making so much bloody noise 2 intimidate li jiawei....but nevertheless i noe she did her best la......tts e most impt......felt realli proud of her......i tink tts 1 spirit tt we mus all adopt......doin our best will do......the outcome afterall isnt tt impt.....wae 2 go team singapore....tml's match 4 s'pore's potential bronze medal in 40 years is realli gonna b xciting......cant wait 2 watch it man.....aniwae i also cant wait 2 go study at jurong regional library tml....wanna sit down n fully focus on revision.....at last i completed e damn hist essay.....can study in peace at least...nw mus do sum stoopid cover page n include biblio n footnotes 4 e essay too......haiz......sounds like sum PW written report......boring....but nvm.......will go do it ASAP n get done n over wif it.......hmmm....currently listening 2 zhang zhen yue's, "ai wo bie zou"......dis song is super nice...havent got enuf of listening 2 it......i also recommend yu heng's "yi ran shi peng you".....sad song but meaningful......if u dun haf e song can cum MSN find me.......i'll send dem 2 u....hahahha....hmmm....i feel quite sian out of a sudden again.....mayb e detrimental effects of too much of history is like tt....... need 2 unwind n relax a bit but mayb STONING again....wow hoh....i jus luv stoning......another lifelong passion apart frm slpg mayb.......heeheez! jus nw went uncle's hse......got so tempted 2 watched e new series of hongkong drama serial.....looks damn interesting.....sum police investigations serial....wah....i tink im nt e onli person enticed by such an interesting show....wanted 2 borrow it ask barney wanna watch not.....but den betta dun get her in2 trouble.....all of us NEED 2 STUDY rather den watch TV......n den i tell myself cannot touch it coz i noe once i start watchin i cant stop.....its nw best 2 jus focus n not watch TV....i cannot afford 2 flung my promos so mani times......mayb i also betta stop cumin online so often.....time 2 STUDY STUDY STUDY.....
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:35 PM
Friday, August 20, 2004 shitified dae in sch....din wanna even turn up todae but in e end dragged myself out of bed at 625 coz ive been skipping 2 many friday lessons tt if i go on i'll b on my CT's wanted list.....rush like a mad dog so as not 2 b late...was cursing n swearin on my wae 2 sch....so sian lor.....holding on 2 my history notes n attempted 2 read but den end up staring blankly in2 it....den met deb on e train...wat a coincidence....complained a little 2 her bout my miseries n found sum comfort coz she had 2 stay in sch till 4....while i finish my dae at 1110......aniwae i reached sch quite on time....still quite pist by e fact tt i was in sch coz i realli din wanna attend sch.....TCP's history lect was crap coz i tink he rushin thru n b4 i even try 2 catch wat he was saeing he alreadi 'explain' finished le....WTH man....den econs lect i was so tired n restless tt i fell aslp towards e end of it.....realli CMI le......attended econs tutorial after a short break feelin rather worried coz i wasnt prepared 4 e lessons....walau....whu noes e DRQ i rushed thru 2 prepare yest wasnt even discussed coz we ran out of time......kaoz lor.....early noe dun do liao...wasted my time....cld haf slpt earlier yest....i was super irritated...damn it!!! at 1110......walked out of my classrm...met barney n bangkee outside e staff rm.....n i wonder when is barney goin 2 return me my orientation tee?!??! after tt i headed straight 4 e main gate n walked out of sch.....heck arh....so fed up tt e onli ting i wanted 2 do was go home n slp...well on e wae hm i suddenly had several tots in my head...i was wondering in my entire life were i given any choices at all....ive been sent 2 sch by my parents '4 my own gd' but isit realli so?!?! so isit a choice out of none...i realli dunno???!! another instance wld b in terms of chances tt were given 2 me.....were dere realli chances given 2 me?!?! isit coz i choose 2 not use my chances properly tt i end up havin none or do i realli haf dem?? i realli dunno.....so afterall perception is realli an illusion created by reality isit??? am i realli 2 pessimistic....am i realli clutchin e past so tightly tt i cant embrace e present?? n y do pple sae tt todae is a gift coz its called 'present' when i dun even like it at all....wats wrong wif me arh?!? suddenly so many qns in my mind....i jus feel so overwhelmed....felt realli down n hence went hm slpt frm 1-7 without any food n toilet break.....was realli a gd slp.....has been sum time since i enjoyed slpg like dis.....gr8 experience indeed....but woke up had slight gastric coz no lunch todae.....but wat realli turned me off is my father's nagging.....darn it......does he ever understands?!?! its nt tt i dun wanna slp at nite n purposely cum hm n nap in e aftn.....whu wun wanna enjoy a gd nite of rest if given a CHOICE!!! i had 2 rush thru my tutorials n prepare 4 e next dae lor.....i also wanna slp early wat....but jus i dun haf a choice.....1 moment u wan me 2 set my priorties rite by putting sch work 1st den nw tt im doin so at e expense of slpg early at nite den u complain.....WTS.....can sum1 pls tell me wat 2 do.....if i cant nap in e aftn 2 catch up on sum slp den tell me wat u wan me 2 do.....im realli veri pist!! i jus din wanna sae anithing coz if i lost my cool i'll bcum veri rude....i noe it.....coz its my father tts y i TOLERATED like crazy.....but i tink e time is near....its jus a matter of time b4 i blow my top.....im jus prayin hard tt i dun do so....but when forced n pressured 2 e end of my wits.....i can realli get worked up n flare.....haiz....i jus wan all dis shit 2 stop irritating me n 4 gdness sake....LEAVE ME ALONE......stop pissing me off.....i wanna jus focus on studies on NUTHIN else....so much so tt i wan 2 tell my father dis..."if i produce results 2 show u.....den u dun haf e rite 2 sae tt wat im doin is not appropriate"....even if i slp e whole dae away......dun bother me as long as i show u i can cope........HAIZ......realli wats wrong wif ME!!!!!
& Monokuro Boo ;
10:28 PM
Thursday, August 19, 2004 haiz...another thursdae passed me by.......quite glad tt e weekends r cumin...finalli....im realli sick of sch.....so tired....n even though e promos r round e corner....it looks like more work r piling....still havent got e time 2 realli sit down n concentrate fully on revision.....mus juggle between revision 4 promos n at e same time complete my assignments, projects n tutorials....walau......damn sian la....e econs project on ASEAN is realli pissing me off.....hw 2 get started....super no mood lor......n den when i attempted 2 revise history...realised tt sum of e pages were MISSING.....so pist lor....isit fate tt i shld nt study nw?!?!.....cannot lor...i dun wanna slack.....i've a burning desire 2 make it 2 e Principal's List.....i realli wanna make it dere.....n i noe i can if i wan 2....so im realli tryin my best best best!!! im jus so irritated lar.....veri fed up coz im so tired n den i realli tink cannot slp so early.....coz my work nt done yet...n i dun like e idea of piling work....TCP's essay i also havent write......HAIZ.....boring.....tink betta get e bloody econs project started if nt can start digging my own grave instead!! IM VERI TIRED le...can e sch give me study break or smthg....n GET THOSE IDIOTIC ASSIGNMENTS OUT OF MY LIFE!!!.....yucks!!! i dun like wat im doin in sch everyday.....but of coz pretending 2 b happie so as 2 b able 2 get pass e dae......if nt im jus so dead......i cant wait 4 e chance 2 slp 12 hrs during e weekends again....jus like last week....wah....shiok arh......slp until like coma......my lifelong passion....SLEEPING.....no doubt about tt 1 man....hahaha....i tink i betta go catch up wif sum maths b4 i retreat n dive 4 my cosy bed...if nt i'll live wif a lot of guilt la....which is bad coz den i wun b able 2 slp properly....alrite.....tml is fridae so early dae...shall jus cum hm n take nap.....im on e verge of collasping anytime if i still dun haf sufficient rest......ok....time 2 sae 'sayonara'....geez!!!
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:30 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2004 jus came back frm J8...went 2 watch Catwoman jus nw......e show was so 'spiderman' feeling lor.....dumb code...."freedom is power"...doesnt it jus sounds like "with great power comes gr8 responsibility"?!?! smthg like tt la......but i tink i jus sat inside e cinema n stoned 4 about 2hrs.....i guess onli bangkee enjoyed herself coz i tink barney was so fidgety e whole time....in e end both of us were stoning i guess!! hahaha....thank gdness its free movie vouchers....if nt i'll nv attempt 2 watch such shows....but i realli still tink it was betta den 'THE NOTEBOOK"......tt was e ultimate man......i practicalli fell aslp in tt show...alrite......lets turn back e time n c wat i did todae in sch.....as usual....boring wed morning.....reached sch den after assembly had econs tutorial....todae nt 2 bad coz went thru MCQ...so at least more involved in discussions.....nv realli slp.....n wats of utmost importance was tt NO ECONS ESSAY 2 write dis week!!! wow hoh....thank GOD man!! den went library study european hist 4 1 hrs plus n went on 4 econs lecture......oh boy....fruitful lecture indeed....mayb nathan isnt a so bad lecturer afterall.....at least i cld realli understand wat he was tryin 2 sae todae on oligopoly!!! after lect went eat lunch wif yogi at canteen n den went back 2 library 2 study again....n wat e shit barney?!?! tell me sae will b at library studyin....went dere DUN EVEN c ur presence 4 like 1 hr.....but luckily met adelia on e wae n sat wif her......half way thru studyin e hist notes...alas....i fell aslp 4 like 30 mins....too overwhelmed by words i guess.....brain suffering frm concussion......den woke up n study until 345.....cannot take it liao......went downstairs 2 find yogi outside LT4...slack wif her until bangkee called........so frm den went 2 J8 n eat n continued slacking ard!!! wat a typical dae of mine....wats a little different was tt i STUDIED a lot todae.....quite surprised i made it thru e dae...hahaha...i tink i dun wanna study tonite liao...need a break....cant absorb so much....realli glad tt i managed 2 catch up a little on european hist......aniwae gotta go eat my supper nw.....im hungry again....mom jus bought KFC...hahaha.....n den im goin 2 slp after tt.....heeheez!!
& Monokuro Boo ;
10:25 PM
Tuesday, August 17, 2004 oh man....was so pist todae when i went down 2 bugis 2 help barney collect her glasses tt went 4 repair...boy tt optician told me 2 go back dere anytime after mondae nite 2 collect e glasses n den when i went dis aftn it was still at e stoopid lab....wasted my time lor....n i was like in such a mad rush....alreadi late 4 cell grp still had 2 wait 4 another 30 mins 4 those pple 2 deliver e glasses down 2 e shop itself......felt like yelling at dem but i kept my cool n walked ard bugis cursing those pple!! n shit those pple at e optical shop.....e glasses came back 2 me lookg as though dey had nv done anyting 2 it....so as distorted as ever.....had 2 complain 2 dem 2 fix on e spot again.....n wasted like another 10 mins....SUPER PIST!!!......bbbuuuuuttttt......guess wat?!?! at least smthg more heartening was tt when i walked into AnBC shop at bugis...i saw dis new collection of DINOSAUR stuff toy...oh man....so cute n hugguble.....all look damn nice but veri ex....jus 1 small ard 2 palm sizes cost 15.90....wow....but it realli caught my eye.....2 bad.....broke la....n i saw so mani new statoneries tt cheered me up a lot more....but den again....BROKE la.....mus wait 4 pay day on e 22nd....bought a new book of foolscap n a green pen(coz i lost it).....hence i jus spent all e money i had in my wallet...now im declared officially BANKRUPT.....pple whu intend 2 rob me can forget it....try robbing urself coz u can jus haf my empty wallet....haiz...went 2 cell 45 mins late todae......was running frm e mrt station 2 tony's hse....damn far la...still had 2 climb bridge....wah kaoz......dead tired....but at least i made my way dere even i when i was so tempted not 2 go alreadi......personal achievement indeed ahahahaha......thank God maths test is finalli over...was so worried n nervous e whole of todae coz of dis maths test....but afterall wasnt tt bad la....pretty confident 4 dis test....pray n hope 2 score above 20.....i studied n practiced like mad n i realli put in my best effort liao.....aniwae i tink a history spring test is on its wae....time 4 me 2 start bucking up coz i alreadi lagging in history......but shld not b 2 much of a problem.....will start revising 4 promos from tml onwards......tonite shall jus rest n replenish my energy so tt i can go full force tml.......
& Monokuro Boo ;
8:27 PM
Monday, August 16, 2004 phew...scary dae in sch todae....pon PE in e mrng coz no mood 2 run....den PE dept suddenly so on about catchin pple whu pon PE...c dem goin 2 e canteen n walking ard e sch 2 find pple like me!! damn scary la!! i was like on e run e whole dae....running n avoiding all at e same time....e stoopid library was freezing but i had not much of a choice but 2 stay inside dere 2 aviod gettin caught!!! realli not fun poning PE....so dangerous!! wonder wat excuse 2 gif next week??!! haiya...heck la....next week den sae!! pretty uneventful dae in sch apart frm e part about poning PE...went 4 e usual GP lect tt was veri much more interesting den b4 coz tong yee was lecturing...boy....he's a gd lecturer man....4 e 1st time i din 4 alsp in GP lect coz he was so entertaining n tt definitely caught my full attention....yogi n i wanted 2 clap 4 him after he ended his lecture but den din do it la coz a bit paiseh....but i mus realli sae HE IS GOOD!! if onli he takes every GP lecture....i tink i will b dying 2 go 4 GP lect...even no notes todae i enjoyed copying notes coz it was tong yee afterall....worth my effort!!! oh man...ive got a serious problem here....e stoopid history fieldtrip tts made compulsory 2 watch dumb kellet perform an opera at NUS Cultural Centre on 3/9 requires all gals 2 put on a gown.....my gosh...where e heck m i goin 2 find a gown 2 wear....i dun even haf a dress....where 2 find gown!!! sian arh! watchin an opera is alreadi gd enuf 2 kill me....still mus wear until so formal...i attend my auntie's wedding also nv wear gown arh!! WTS man....n worst of all is e History fieldtrip 2 London n France requires us 2 take FRENCH lessons frm kellet....wah kaoz....go 1 trip also mus so mani tings.....n GOD NOES WAT HE IS SPEAKING in FRENCH! mayb 4get bout e stoopid trip....c hw 1st.....i rather go on church mission trip man! at least no need 2 learn dis n tt....haiz....tml maths test...1 moment feel worried....1 moment cant b bothered....den next moment scared again...dunno la...i tink i shld jus heck bout it.....n leave it 2 God 2 do e rest while i go rest....alrite.....i cant wait 2 watch FRIENDS tonite....last episode of final season i tink...gonna miss all e crap on mondae nite i guess...1 less reason 2 coz me nt 2 look 4ward 2 mondays....
& Monokuro Boo ;
5:45 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2004 shucks man....wat haf i been doin e whole of todae?!?!? started off e dae veri badly coz i overslept n din attend church svc!! by e time i woke up was alreadi 1115 n svc started at 11am...so got quite pist wif myself tt i went back 2 slp all e wae till 215pm...long time since i slp so much but den i guess too much slp make me even more tired...hmmm...attempted 2 do sum maths practice 2 prepare 4 e sickening upcoming test on tuesdae but realised tt ive so mani more qns 2 continue.....SO SIAN! den walked ard my whole hse tryin 2 tink of smthg else 2 do but den no idea!! so in e end resorted 2 watchin TV......n guess wat.....no programme worth watchin so much so tt ive 2 watch repeat telecast of NDP 04.....WAH KAOZ!!! so boring!!! tried 2 do sum work in front of e TV but den got so tempted 2 look at e TV screen tt i cant do work properly....so 4get it.....decided 2 concentrate fully on watchin 'zhen qing' instead!! got quite hungry at 630 so made myself sum kaya toast coz my parents went out again!!! no food @ hm except bread!! got realli sick of e TV so switched it off n did a lot of maths on e dining table while listening 2 e radio...i tink tt was e onli fruitful period of time i spent todae...argh....tml got PE...e much dreaded PE again....gonna b sticky all over again....yucks! wats worst is tt gotta start mondae morning wif 3 periods of GP....wat e heck man!!! nuthin much 2 look 4ward 2 go 2 sch dis week...guess its goin 2 b another mundane week 2 go thru e weekly routines again!! gotta start preparing TCP's tutorial qns coz i havent been doin his work since god noes when!!! n my SEA hist test result sux so badly...i guess i jus sux at SEA hist! aniwae i tink its time 2 get back 2 practicing maths.....wasted 2 much time liao....haiz.....bbbbooooooorrring......
& Monokuro Boo ;
9:35 PM
Saturday, August 14, 2004 oh man.....im so so dead 4 e GP common test todae......though i tot e essay din sux as bad as it wld usualli do....but im bound 2 flung my compre......shucks man.....summary n AQ both indeed CMI...its like e toughest paper ive came across dis year lor....i jus knew smthg like tt was goin 2 happen....havin 2 go 2 sch on sat is alreadi a major turn off....plus it had 2 be 4 a common test n mus be GP sum more.....wat e shit man?!?! im realli super tired....coz woke up so damn early 2 attend sch....still tinkin whether shld i practice sum econs mcq or shld i jus go slp....feel a little guilty 4 nt attempting 2 do work leh....sum more not veri in e mood 2 study 4 maths test dis cumin tues....like so sian 2 practice maths out of a sudden.....jus dun feel like doin anything......coz i wanna slack ard......but haiz........so mani buts buts buts.......hw i realli wish can go sch slack ard everyday n haf fun....but nvm....i guess im jus tinkin 2 much.....not realli in e rite state of mind coz im like brain dead liao!!! alrite...i tink i shall go slp nw.....tIreD!! *yawnz*
& Monokuro Boo ;
4:18 PM
Friday, August 13, 2004 nice post title rite...i tink so too...but haiz.....another tiring dae in sch todae...was so tempted not 2 even attend sch dis mrng....mom had 2 cum into my room 3 times b4 i finalli reluctantly jumped out of bed coz i was like super late....den went 2 sch got quite irritated n pist off by my econs tutor.....who was blasting at e whole class coz of e poor performance of e recent econs spring test....cummon man...not every1 in e class did as poor....or at least i din.....cant he jus see e pple he wans 2 direct all his frustrations to after class or smthg...can blast 4 all he wans......bloody idiot.....alreadi so pist 2 b in sch attending econs tutorial....still wanna pist me further by blasting at e whole class 4 a reason which i cant justify at all....sianz arh....watever la....attitude fella...mood swings faster den a pendulum lor.....aniwae went 2 touch community todae 2 chalk up sum CIP hours together wif peyshan, my classmate...had quite a heart2heart tok wif her on e bus.....realli nice gal....tokin 2 her make me feel tt im so blessed n much more fortunate...thank god 4 tt.....n also thank god 4 e gd results of econs test too.....though did sum last min revision still can manage...im realli grateful n i finalli noe y faith can do wonders....2 believe is 2 win half e battle alreadi.....n faith realli did wonders!!! tml got GP common test....damn sian.....full 3 hrs paper sum more....im like so worried tt i'll stone in e LT again coz nuthin 2 write in essay.....jus pray n hope tt can pass can liao......so tired.....jus completed econs essay.....hand in 1 den surely haf another 1 2 write again....its a never-ending vicious cycle...dunno whether 2 thank my tutor or wat.....i noe its a form of gd practice but too much of it can get realli traumatising..n e words "econs essay" can alreadi send me running away liao....wat more can i sae?!??!? in a wae i realli cant wait 4 promos 2 cum so tt i can take e exams n den enjoy my holidays!! but if promos is here n done wif.......it wld also mean tt my J2s frens r leaving college 2 prepare 4 e As....haiz......still veri 'yi yi bu she' lor....i comtemplate not goin 2 sch on e 13/10 coz its their garduation ceremony....last official dae in nanyang......i dun wanna end up crying or tearing like a mad dog in sch...so paiseh lor...n i tink i wld if im goin 2 sch 2 so called 'send dem off'.....haiz.....e tot of it alreadi making me quite sad liao......y mus i always b tinking so much!?!??! life in sch will nv b e same without barney, bangkee, pet, long, sha-ron, xs, pingz.....mayb i shld sae i can nv b e same without e existence of 03A6....i dread e arrival of tt veri dae.....
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:28 PM
Wednesday, August 11, 2004 haiz....so fast another dae gone...wat e heck did i do todae?!?! tok a lot of crap in sch on e pretext of studyin in e geog room....supposed 2 teach barney sigma todae but den i guess she's jus 2 busy engaged in a world of her own...drawing e geog room layout n tokin shit wif pet as well! hope next wed will get 2 do smthg constructive man...not much time left 2 e promos once again....so glad n sad tt im not workg towards 2 As....seeing every1 ard me slogging 2 e As realli scares me but den im jus feeling a sense of regret n remorse 4 not being able 2 take e As as yet too...sounds dumb rite?!!? but its realli how i feel...came home feeling so lethargic...jus in time 2 catch S'pore Idol on 5 jus now....not as funnie n lame as e 1st episode but i still enjoyed it....was watchin it wif daddy on my new LCD tv....as usual dad asked if e TV was clear.....he even switched on e home audio system 2 blast my whole hse up....(supposed 2 blast onli e hall but my hse too small...so end up blast whole hse!) den he was adjusting dunno wat shit clarity n volume tt i watched S'pore idol wif half e screen blocked!!! feel like doin smthg constructive now but den dunno wat.....also feel like slpg liao...but hair still wet...so jus stone ard ba....currently listening 2 JJ's ....veri touching song.....like it lots!!! but its making me more slpy as well coz its slow!!! damn sian alreadi man.....ok la....i dunno wat else 2 write alreadi....jus wanna get done n over wif tml asap....i HATE thursdays....coz i haf all my tutorials n its a super long dae...lookg 4ward 2 cell grp after sch tml....apart frm tt nuthin much 2 look 4ward also la....im so tired...if onli i can officially grant myself another break frm e sch...IF ONLI...
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:37 PM
Tuesday, August 10, 2004 wow hoh...im realli gettin bored online....c every1 haf blog n almost every1 askin me y i dun haf blog....so decided 2 create 1 lor....nuthin betta 2 do den can start blogging ma! well mayb i dun realli like e idea of a blog coz i feel tt sum things r meant not 2 let e world noe...not exactly keepin 2 oneself but i believe tt mayb onli my gd frens shld get 2 noe.....not every1 u c! hahaha...tts 1 privilege of e mani 4 being my gd fren....those of u noe whu u r....though i can get real irritating sum times but den i cherish u guys...coz u added colours 2 my life...1 of my strongest pillar of support in life....w/o u all den i wun b standing strong where i am now...my 1st post on dis blog of mine wld b a BIG THANK YOU 2 u!! no names specified but i tink up till nw 'xin zhi du ming' rite?!?! haiz.....i dun feel like studyin at all now....no mood....i noe lotsa tests r cumin my wae but i guess i choose 2 ignore e fact coz i realli damn sian! rather waste time online den study....realli fed up wif myself 4 doin dis but i realli got no motivation leh....mayb not tonite....jus slack ard 1st c how la....oh ya...went 2 watch the movie wif barney n bangkee todae...was kinda boring but e love story was pretty touching though...kinda got reminded of my own grandparents...sudden surge of emotions while watchin e undying luv between the characters in e story...e song by colin raye also suddenly came into my mind.....e lyrics matched e scenes i guess....but i actualli fell aslp halfway thru e show coz most of e times quite sian...but whatever la....e next movie im dying 2 watch is ...but now i so broke.....got money den tok la....okie...gg 2 slp soon le....alrite tts all 4 now....
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:06 PM
