Wednesday, September 15, 2004 tired....drained out....exhausted...wat more can i sae.....18 more daes 2 go....promos....once again....e dreaded promos....long awaited yet long hated...waitin 4 tt 3 daes thru out dis whole year....realli cant wait 4 it 2 b over....time 2 prove myself again....i noe i can do it....jus tt i tend 2 get a tense veri easily....my mind jus keep tinkin of e negative tots...veri irritating.....keep tellin myself can make it....no problem...sure make it big sum more....but im realli veri scared leh....a sense of insecurity tt floats ard all e time....i sae i dun care bout hw pple ard me fare 4 exams n tests....but aM i realli able 2 jus compete wif myself n realli nt care....im tryin....realli tryin...but occasionally cant help but 2 start comparing myself wif e rest....i c it as an obligation 4 me 2 do betta den my classmates....i wanna make my extra year spent in JC worthwhile...i cannot jus make do wif a PASS grade....i need more den tt...i need my distinctions.....haiz......dis is realli torture....i jus hate comparing wif others.....human nature isit?? cant seem 2 help it...sux.....18 daes 2 go....soon it will b over....i can do it....yes i can.....i noe I CAN......
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:25 PM