Monday, October 11, 2004 whoa...promos over le...time 2 slack ard...hmmm...no need 2 go sch 4 e whole of dis week...nt intending 2 go 4 e bo liao LEAPS carnival n sch open house dis thur n fri...no business 2 b in sch at all...13th october...2 daes more...time 4 J2s 2 leave NY le...i prepared little farewell gifts 4 dem...still a little reluctant 2 c dem go...but den its jus a matter of time tt ive 2 let go...wonder how life will b in sch without dem...apparently sch wun b tt fun le ba...no more lame n cold rubbish...no more crapping ard so carefreely...i jus knew i wld b realli sad dis graduation ceremony...i was meant 2 b part of it...im supposed 2 b happie 2gether wif all of dem...or mayb at least glad 2 graduate wif dem...but i onli haf myself 2 blame ba...i onli can b happie 4 dem lor...however i still tink tt its worthwhile repeating another year...coz if nt 4 tt...i wld nt noe how mani boundaries i cld cross...how much potential i realli had 4 my studies...if not 4 e sch's decision 2 make me stay another year...i wldnt noe tt i cld haf a taste of success in college...e used 2 b impossible is no longer tt impossible le...i finalli noe wat is called hard work pays...but e price 2 pay is high...much 2 high...its realli no joke 2 b in a position like mine...proud 2 sae i survived thru a traumatising year like dis...or rather almost a year...jus 1 more year 2 go...n i'll b out of dis...hafta make dis extra year spent worthwhile...promise not 2 let it go 2 waste...wif all my heart n soul...i'll strive 4 e best...dis is e onli ting tts within my control...since i cant change things ard me i can onli focus on those tings i can try changing...mayb i shld change myself or smthg...mayb change my mindset tt sayin gd bye is hard...it shld nt b tt hard afterall...i dunno...jus try......
hmmm...hw am i 2 spend my 12 weeks of so called break...its onli e 3rd dae of my break n im so bored alreadi...tot of borrowing HK vcd frm my uncle 2 watch at home...mayb later go collect dem so tt i can start watchin...local tv channels realli haf no gd shows 2 watch in e aftn...evening time also not any betta...bo bian gotta watch vcd lor...everybody havin upcoming exams...cannot disturb dem...also not close 2 ani of my present classmates...not realli interested 2 disturb dem la...so jus 4get it...mayb being a loner next year mite do me sum gd coz onli den i can start working hard w/o distractions 4 e As...sounds veri anti-social...but nvm lor...cant always haf so mani company...so gotta learn 2 b independent also lor...i mean wat can i do...or isit jus another excuse 4 me nt wanting 2 get 2 noe my classmates betta...HAIZ...i realli dun wanna tink bout it...my mind is always filled wif so mani tots whenever i tink of all dis...it links frm 1 issue 2 another...suan le...dun wanna tink so much...let nature take its course...surely tings will cum betta...or shld i sae i HOPE tt tings will bcum betta...well...pray n hope......
& Monokuro Boo ;
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