Thursday, October 21, 2004 hmmm....had a veri veri gd tok wif dadday yest nite...or shld i sae veri veri early mrng....was discussing wif him my uni plans...sort of overseas uni plans....we tok frm 3am till 5am...boy it was tiring but at least i finalli understood daddy had e best intentions 4 me...mommy was also veri supportive....i told dad i wanted 2 go 2 Yale Uni in e US....he said im too ambitious??!! am i realli too ambitious? makes me realli wonder....its gd 2 haf an aim....its gd 2 set targets....but b realistic...tts wat daddy said...veri veri logical...makes lotsa sense too....but i realli wanna achieve e aim of gg 2 study in Yale...daddy said tt those hu make it 2 uni such as Yale n Harvard r like world's top 10%...n according 2 him my intellects r onli 25% of those pple...im still wae 2 far frm their abilities...2 sum extent i tink dad is right....BUT still i wanna try...i dun believe wif hard work n determination i cant get anywhere near dere...
hmmm....dad also said tt if i realli wanna make it 2 Yale...i mus change e wae i approach my studies....he sae e grades B,C,C n C5 is too trivial...n he believes i can do betta den jus BCC....n i noe tt....i mus not b so contented or even conceited wif my results...coz dad believes i can get triple A grades....n i noe i can....its jus whether i wan it or not.....n after hearing wat daddy said i made up my mind.....I WAN TRIPLE As...im gonna make sure tt happens.....i mus approach my studies wif a burning passion of wanting 2 noe more n find out more....i wanna go 2 Yale...n im gonna prove 2 myself n not disappoint every1 tt put their hopes n trust wif me...
daddy tinks tt i still young at 18....tinkin veri different....still a bit naive sumtimes....dare 2 dream...veri veri big dreams sum more....he said he understands wat im tinkin coz he was once young too....but he said dun b too ambitious coz at e end of e dae i'll b disappointed.....i noe i sound illogical 2 suddenly cum home n start blabbering bout wanting 2 go 2 Yale 2 study....guess my parents got quite shock out of a sudden too....i mean afterall i havent been such a high performer in my studies till recently...n i was touched when dad sae financially i need not worri coz it isnt my duty 2 worry as he'll provide n worry tt 4 me....he said 80-90 K isnt much of a big deal 2 him n he definitely can support me thru an overseas education in Yale if i can make it dere....no need go n stress myself take S paper 2 apply scholarship....but nevertheless its also good 2 try takin S paper 4 experience sake....as long as i dun put those money 2 waste dad sae tt he realli dun mind spending tt huge amt of money on my studies...wow....thanks a lot daddy n mommy 4 always being so supportive n encouraging....nv once forsaking me even at my most dire state...now tt im standing up so strong once again is no doubt largely coz of ur encouragement n faith tt u all had in me...thanks a lot.....i dun always sae tt 2 u all but i realli mean it a lot when i do sae it.....frm e bottom of my heart....luv ya lots....im realli so touched....hu else can haf greater parents den mine....so glad tt im so so so fortunate....thank God 4 blessing me wif wonderful parents n frens....thank God 4 helpin me tide thru difficult times n also in time 2 cum....nuthin can get betta den watever i haf now i guess.....but hu noes.....betta tings mite b installed 4 me in e future.....i mean afterall my future isnt tt bleak....in fact its brighter den ever...i mus continue or shld i sae improve on my method of studyin in order 2 excel more....no doubt i can do it....wif all e support i haf....all tts provided 4 me....wat more can i ask 4....now its time 4 me 2 show wat im supposed 2 show....bright future....all e wae.....!!
