Sunday, October 17, 2004 hmmm...time 2 go back 2 sch officially tml...its official.....officially without e J2s also....hmmm.....i onli haf 1 reason 2 go back 2 sch tml....its bcoz i wan my promos results back....i wanna c if i haf justified all dis mths of hard work...i MUS prove my worth....but im not ready 2 go....not ready 2 start off another chapter in NY...not w/o my frens....its rather foolish 2 sae smthg like tt now.....but i noe myself.....im not ready at all.....mayb i need sum more time....jus like e 1st dae i stepped into NY...i needed time 2 adapt 2 my new environment......its not tt my environment changed...but e most impt ting 2 me is tt my frens r gone....dey haf left NY....its worst den a change in environment....ive never felt dis sad b4.....not even when i had 2 leave sec sch....gg 2 sch tml jus feels like gg 2 sch 4 e 1st time all over again....i hate starting all over again.....it feels like i ve nuthin at all.....no1 wif me....no1 2 lend support frm...no1 2 borrow a shoulder even when i need 1 2 cry on....how sad can my life can huh?!?! i wanna move on....i realli wan 2....but always seems like ive smthg i cannot let go.....smthg which i keep clutchin so tightly n refuse 2 let go.....its e same ting frm e beginning of e year till now....i mus realli learn 2 let go......or mus i realli do so?!?! .....wo hen bu she de.....
& Monokuro Boo ;
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