Tuesday, October 05, 2004 finalli e history paper is over...so relieved...more confident 4 all e papers tt ive done 4 dis promos as compared 2 last year...but i dun realli dare 2 sae anything more coz hu noes wats gonna happen till e results r out....haiz....i dunno y i suddenly feel so lost todae...wat exactly is tt feeling? im supposed 2 b feeling happie todae....coz e hist paper....e 1 tt i fear most is finalli over...but wat is happening 2 me....im not ani happier....is tt a sign of depression? i realli dunno...yes indeed the papers were manageable n i realli gotta sae i survived thru all e papers so far......realli not my own credit but i gotta thank God 4 helping me tide thru dis period of uncertainty....if dere 1 qns i wanna ask Him it wld b wat happened again.....i survived e most feared paper but y arent i ani happier now....i jus feel so down out of a sudden...argh....i tink im goin mad n crazy...a state of imbalance....im veri veri irritated by my own com coz it crashed n now i cant even on e com properly....how 2 tell daddy....sure kena until veri jialat frm him....argh....all my 500 plus songs in my com gone.....n now cant use at all.....how la?!?! sumbody help....im like using daddy's laptop secretly now coz he's out.....i realli dunno how 2 tell him bout my com's condition....GOD pls help.....i'll try telling him tml tt my poor com crashed......n i realli hope he understands tt i did not delibrately caused it 2 crash.....i dun even noe wat e heck happened 2 it n now its dead....i tink im goin 2 bcum like my com.....i also goin 2 crash.....havent been slpg well 4 e past 2 daes....i shld i sae havent even been slpg 4 e past few daes....mayb onli yest i caught a wink at ard 4am in e mrng till 11 coz hist paper was in e aftn at 1pm todae.....n now i feel so dead frm e accumulated effects of insufficient rest.....tml is maths paper....a paper tt im least worried 4 yet now im also feeling worried.....haiyo....c la....i dunno wats happening 2 me....exams make me mad...no doubt bout tt.....everytime exam onli i feel veri veri lost.....i mus force myself go n rest...cannot go on like dis.....if go on tml i sure collaspe le....feel zombified.....argh.....life sux 4 e time being....i cant wait 4 e tense period 2 b over...i wan my life back......I NEED A BREAK frm all these.....
