Thursday, November 18, 2004 haf u ever wondered how isit to be feeling sad n down too when e matter is like totalli none of ur business...well i tink i roughly noe how e feelin is like...4 dis 2 weeks of e big 'A's (not my 'A's though but it shld haf been....2 bad i screwed my chance up last year...so still waiting 4 my turn 2 cum next year..)...ive been feelin excited, nervous, worried, anxious thru out dis weeks as my frens go in2 e exam hall 2 take their papers...hmmm..much as i wanted so much 2 be dere...much as i wanted so much 2 b part of dis 'A's (mayb u tink i mus b mad!)...too bad...onli can make up by sending msgs of encouragement rite b4 e paper...hopefully u all can go into e exam halls wif a little more confidence...coz i realli believe tt to noe tt sum1 cares n noes is realli impt...sum1 hu noes e exact time, date n duration of ur paper...i wld pray n hope so much tt everything goes well during their paper...but well watever e case...even if my frens feel battered n bruised after e paper...i wld also wanna b e 1st 2 share e sorrow wif dem...dis r wat frens r 4 afterall rite....at least tts my definition of true frens....
it can realli b depressing 2 noe tt my frens screwed their paper up sumtimes...i cant help but feel affected n bcum down too...but hu will stand strong n provide e moral support when every1 fumble n fall....so although its rather sad case...still mus put up tt strong front...still mus always always b dere 4 my frens....actualli im realli running out of words 2 console pple...n seriously im rather tired of doin tt....well i realli hope tt watever e next paper is....do it well pple....dun get affected by e previous papers....i noe how depressing things can get when after almost every paper...u feel like u r 1 step closer 2 digging ur own grave....but nvm....as long as tts ur best shot...jus keep gg.....haiz...i cant wait 4 e damn exams 2 b over....its too time consuming....my frens r so busy until i can hardly spend quality time wif dem....i wan my shppg trips, ktv, sun-tanning, toking crap session, chalet, cycling.....so mani mani more tings tt r 2 cum along soon....meanwhile i shld jus stop feelin sad too....n stop being e silly old me.......
& Monokuro Boo ;
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