Monday, May 30, 2005 alrite....e beginning of my june 'vacation'...a vacation tt requires me 2 go back 2 sch almost everyday of dis week....darn it!! cant seem 2 focus as well as i did during e march common test period....i wanna go out n haf fun...dun haf e mood 2 study leh!! oh gdness how la? cannot go on like tt!! i need 2 find e motivation 2 go on....n at double e speed too...am i realli sick of my study routines so much so tt i realli dun wanna continue it....ARGH!! *tearing my hair outta my head*perhaps dis week need 2 settle down....den nxt week start 2 drill myself wif econs n math....as for history i realli dunno how la....esp SEA hist....shucks lor...jus got back my SEA hist test paper n i got like 7/25.....wats worst is tt im nt sad about it....like kinda numb alreadi lor....fail until sian....2 e extent tt i dun even wanna care bout SEA hist le....coz its realli so damn boring n dry...n im nt doin anything about it...gosh!! save me sumbody but WHU?!? *crapz*...haiya....i tink i'll probably take e week after next to drill on hist.....*sobz sobz*hmmm....back 2 a more interesting thought....i wonder am i realli tt lousy in keepin surprises?!? ive been intending 2 get smthg 4 barney 4 her upcoming 19th bdae n ive alreadi keepin veri quiet about dis.....BUT HOW CUM barney will still find out b4 i tell her so....kaoz...nt fun wan lor...i realli got drop so MUCH hint until she can guess it rite meh.....perhaps i tink its jus her gut feeling tellin her so....but realli i dun tink its me rite.....aiyer...feel so naked when pple read my mind....wat e heck!!?!? so now wat? of coz is drop e plan la...barney insist 2 do so...mus listen 2 e bdae gal rite! yupz....so i actualli came up wif another nt so practical idea but veri much e same effect tt i intended 2 spring upon her....ahahahha....dis time i shall jus nt even mention it 2 anybody....jus me myself noe veri well wat it is!! havent check out e gift out though...shall find another dae 2 go shppg n get e gift as well as e veri nice heels i saw at charles & keith...yeay!! shppg is indeed gr8 fun!! but e great spore sales is disappointing...coz discounts 4 onli SELECTED ITEMS.....like tt how 2 buy until shiok rite! well aniwae i'll hafta go back 2 continue procrastinating and tink of e formation of e pressie im 2 get 4 barney!! *xcited* & Monokuro Boo ;
8:32 PM
Thursday, May 26, 2005 oh shucks...how cum barney can so 'qiao' happen 2 meet jon...i also wanna meet jon leh.....oh well apart frm e fact tt i get 2 meet him in sch everyday......i dun care....isnt it better 2 meet him outside sch too? hahahaha.....libing...soon we've a 'camp' 2 attend below jon's housing block okie?!?! dun forget arh....we will 'ban jia' together 2 hougang area soon....ahahahah....wahlau....so jealous & envious....hmmmm....imagine jon in tt new 'crew-cut' look n merit points 4 his 2 adorable sons too....indeed like father like son.....jon is no doubt e eye-candy of all times....hepoint 2 ponder: shld i even attend sch tml? i wanna c jon's new hair-style....but i dun wanna go sch!!okie tink im tokin lotsa crap now....but whu can resist it rite?!?!*how i wish i ACTUALLI took geog in e 1st place!!...shucks....wrong choice 2 take history indeed...* & Monokuro Boo ;
11:01 PM
Monday, May 23, 2005 wohoo....much as ive been anticipating 4 e arrival of my bdae pressie frm barney....its veri up 2 expectations...not big in physical size but i can sense & feel e big effort and priceless thought....so in other words, its a gift tt cannot be replaced....1st of all is coz its frm barney...2nd is tt its such a wonderful and beautiful gift......so 'mei' leh....bet nobody out dere will receive smthg like tt.....wahahaha...okie....sae so much....now let me show e world wat i got.....here it goes...
P.S: this note is frm barney 2 everybody : barney will nt b visiting any blogs due to her contempt for her own blog......she will forgive her blog after 1 week...pls do not visit her blog as a form of punishment 4 her blog...thank u 4 ur kind understanding...Yours Barney-lyBarney23/05/05 & Monokuro Boo ;
11:51 PM
Tuesday, May 17, 2005 interesting as how tings can get....im seriously in a horrendous mood swing now....so wat actualli made me reach out 4 e daily devotion book across my study table outta a sudden?!...dunno also...jus a sudden desire 2 grab e book n read!...n as i flipped e pages....dis sentence caught my eye...."...surely I will be with you..."...Judges 6:16...God is with us in the fight and that's enough!well....God r u reallie dere? if so will u hold my hand today and every other day? as it seems.....im lost....in dunno where...i need You to guide me along....coz me alone...i guess i wun haf e courage 2 take big steps 4ward in2 an uncertain future of mine....many a times i noe ive been a smart aleck trying 2 plan ahead of wat u haf already planned 4 me...i noe veri well tt ive doubts n i dun realli put my trust into wat u haf installed 4 me....perhaps dis time is coz ive no way out.....im back 2 depending on u again.....dis shld nt b e way.....gosh.....wat a sinner i am...onli seeking God when i need Him...."...when we pray to Him about it, He will help us do just that..."God...if u r reallie onli a prayer away....cya dere..... & Monokuro Boo ;
10:00 PM
Thursday, May 12, 2005 okie...its my bdae todae.....alrite...im finalli 19...in fact i was onli exactly 19 1 hour ago at 1330 hrs....i was born exactly 19 years ago at tt time ma! ahahahahha....alrite dis post is dedicated 2 all e wonderful frens n family of mine....a sincere gratitude *BIG THANK YOU* for all of u who remembered my bdae.....esp 2 those of sent me so mani well-wishes......*thank you sis isabella 4 e wonderful chocolate cake, ivan 4 giving me a wonderful pressie, alvin and xiaoshi 4 celebrating my bdae too!*Thanks a lot.....(in order of sequence of sms n calls n well wishes)1.1) barnbarn.....(always so irritating but u made it 2 e 1st on e list despite e gr8 competition...hahah!)1.2) deb,mic,tara,tdy,mingyu,samuel,guangyuan... thanks 4 e wonderful countdown yest nite online...indeed a veri special way 2 countdown 2 my bdae! thank YOU!1.3) my mother (although u shld b 1st in line coz we live in e same...aiya...anything la! ahahha!)2) 'cousin' sharon..(our bdaes r direct opposites!)3) sasi...(i realli appreciate e fact tt u remembered my bdae...veri touched! thanks!)4) de-miar!....(zi lian kuang....i expected u 2 b on my top 3 long gu bang but u missed it slightly!)5) LiBing (at least after so much HINT den u realised...hahaha!)6) Yogi darling! (lamer!)7) aman....(hugs!)8) my 1 & onli 'sis'....(luv yar!)9) xiao shit!...(surprised surprised)10) xiaoshi (frm church...thanks 4 e well wishes!)11) aunt kelly...(nv failing 2 rem every year!)12) junni.....(4 remembering...wahahah!)13) jenny...(i realli appreciate frens like u...thank u!)14) baba...(im so surprised 2 receive ur sms...Thanks gal!)15) peixing...(my veri supportive n sweet junior!)16) sis xiaoyan....(another big thank u!)17) zoey..(4 callin 2 sae 'happie bdae' and hanging up straight after!)
...still counting...i'll update e *honour roll* by 2359 hrs todae...ahahhaha.....THANK you all 4 making me feel so loved.....hmm...now u c why i luv my own bdae so much....wahahahhaha!!!*2 those whu i missed thanking...pls dun feel offended coz my brain cant function tt well already....aniwae still big thanks 2 u guys out dere!! & Monokuro Boo ;
2:50 PM
Tuesday, May 10, 2005 heeheez.....im gettin a little xcited coz its gg 2b my bdae soon....wahahah....okie...as u can figure out tt im beginning 2 bcum kinda cranky la.....dun realli wanna b 19 tt soon but im glad tt its my bdae tts cumin.....*paradox*....1st of all coz i always feel so loved on my bdae.....n e presents r compliments 2 e feelin of being loved (which i enjoy a lot!).....ahahahaha.....how do i sound as an attention-deficit kid yea?! plus point is tt i get 2 go out n eat n watch movie wif my dearest yet irritating barney n e phantom!.....*e phamtom's identity shall b protected 2 avoid persecution* ahahahah! oh whats more is tt im gg 2 receive tons of pressies n e tot of it is making me veri xcited....i seriously sound mad but i dun care....coz i've e right 2 b so....since its my BIRTHDAY rite?!?! probably 1 last time 2 enjoy life b4 i immense myself into those books till e 21st Nov......yupz....im marking tt date down on all my calendars coz its e last dae of MY big 'A's...cant wait 4 it 2 end...n i'll start a 'dumping notes' spree......alrite....meanwhile im gg back 2 tink about my bdae...yupz...tts bout it!! & Monokuro Boo ;
5:55 PM
Thursday, May 05, 2005 okie seriously i dunno wats wif myself...haf been gg thru lotsa mood swings 4 e past few days n i cant explain y....mayb PMS...but ive nv felt like dis 4 quite a long time....gettin angry n frustrated over absolutely I DUNNO WAT...isit e overwhelming workload tts eating my energy up? or isit jus me n a problem wif myself??! i feel damn fed up when ive 2 'pia' my tutorial and den still hafta study 4 test....sickening! tired..veri lethargic coz nt enuf slp 4 a few nitez le.....gg 2 sch is seriusly super sian....i cant wait 4 e long weekends 2b here again...thereafter i'll haf my june 'vacations' which i can spend quality time studying 4 e mids...another opportunity 2 prove myself....so somehow i guess im anticipating 4 e mids 2 cum....*sounds rather psycho*...okie....seeing every1 receiving letters frm e local uni makes me rather envious already....im also hoping 4 dis dae 4 myself....perhaps sum time dis day next year....realised tt 'tok onli no action' is useless....so i had better do smthg 2 achieve my desired results 2 get into e uni....hmmm....proscrastination is getting me no where...so i guess its time 2 hit e books and notes now.....;) & Monokuro Boo ;
8:21 PM
Monday, May 02, 2005 long weekends tt ive been waiting 4...in a no time it'll b gone n i den i'll be like 'y take so long 2 cum n so fast 2 go'....well...i had a veri tiring weekend i mus sae....kinda find it hectic....n its nt coz i was doin work all e time.....lets c....on friday after sch i went 2 kbox wif mic n deb straight after sch...it was decided on a last min ting n so i spent 5 hrs dere from 2-7pm....after which i went 4 dinner wif my family at dis jap restaurant at great world city.....so my day ended wif me doin sum maths till 2am.....*i was practically scribbling workings coz was so sleepy*....den on sat mrng i woke up at 6am jus 2 go 4 e STOOPID walkathorn at UOB plaza....all thanks 2 my sch 4 making such wonderful arrangements...of coz being e rebellious me..i din bother walkin....once e race started...1 of my classmate n i walked off in e opposite direction n headed 4 breakfast.....went home after tt n den rested 4 awhile den went out.....wasted 1 whole dae running ard e island n shppg in between.....joined mommy n her colleagues 4 supper at 'lao pa sat' till past midnight....n den dis 2nd day ended wif me doin sum maths again till 2am.....okie....dis mrng woke up at 7am...*my gosh* 2 go 2 my uncle's hse 2 return e zoo pass (long story and barney shld noe e story VERY WELL!)...den headed down 2 church 4 youth svc worship practice at 9am......came back home at 2pm n slept all e wae till 730pm...i realli cant take it anymore....its reallie too taxing on my body 2 wake up at 7am n sleep at 2am every nite.....jus 5 hrs of pathetic slp is definitely insufficient 4 e lazy me!!okie rite now im so happie tt finish maths DRV tut & GP AQ qns & eurp hist lect 6 qns.....so basically tml i can shop in peace coz all my work DONE...ahahahahah....okie....shall jus slack ard by reading sum econs stuff.....on btw econs is now my favourite subject among e 3.....im nt crazy...neither am i mad....i jus suddenly haf e passion in me....wahahahhaah......on my 2 a distinction....ahahhaha....wat do u tink huh? ahahahahahh! & Monokuro Boo ;
12:41 AM
