Tuesday, August 30, 2005 im feelin so frustrated...jus finished revision on 4 sets of SEA history lect notes....still got lots 2 go...n i realli tink i cant take it anymore....ARGH! *screams*....much as i din wanna touch SEA history...ultimately i still haf no choice but to discipline myself 2 stop kao-pei-ing, stop all procrastination n realli get down 2 study....wat 2 do? i dun get 2 choose at dis stage already....since i dun wanna die so onli left wif e 'do' option...realli veri 'xin ku'..its realli veri taxing..any1 of u whu haf gone thru or gg thru wat im experiencing now shld noe how i feel exactly...im realli struggling 2 keep myself alive but im gg 2 put up a strong fight...."Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go."...Joshua 1:9 & Monokuro Boo ;
11:30 PM
Friday, August 26, 2005 sighz....im nt feelin well...havin flu 4 e past few days....n fever comes at night....i always feel tt my eyes will jus drop off its sockets soon coz i feel so burnt every night (early mrng 2b exact!)..jus veri uncomfortable la...prelims is beginning on tues....n i hate it coz i always fall sick b4 major exams....tink i realli surrender...i shall go c e doctor later 2 get medicine so as 2 recover fast...cannot afford 2 do e prelims in dis condition....jus like e mid years....mayb tt explains y i flung my GP in mids 4 e 1st time! haiz....damn sian....nt prepared 4 e prelims...nv felt so unprepared 4 quite a long time....perhaps coz its full paper format 4 all e subjects...tts y im beginning 2 feel e mounting pressure...stress + insufficient rest = sick i need 2 rest well, get well, do well n be well......SIANZ....mite as WELL jus jump into the WELL....oh mayb like wat barney says......LETS MEET AT THE WELL! wahahaha! & Monokuro Boo ;
4:46 PM
Monday, August 22, 2005 童话
忘了有多久 再没听到你
对我说你 最爱的故事
我想了很久 我开始慌了
是不是我又 做错什么
你哭着对我说 童话里都是骗人的
我不可能 是你的王子
也许你不会懂 从你说爱我以后
我的天空 星星都亮了
我愿变成 童话里
你爱的那个天使 张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和 快乐是结局
& Monokuro Boo ;
11:42 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005 jus sum after thoughts tt i tot i shld share..back 2 e qns..do u realli believe true love exist? personally i do! its nt tt im in luv n tts y im sayin all dis...i jus dun quite get it when pple tell me dey do not believe tt luv realli exist! whatever the reason for sucha belief...isit realli bcoz u havent seen or experienced it? or isit bcoz once bitten twice shy? it makes me wonder...perhaps love in a boy-girl relationship might not be long lasting...perhaps marriage is jus another commodity in our commercialised world (okie..i tink i sound like im writing GP essay!)...but 1 ting 4 sure without a doubt....love & warmth in a family and among frens realli does exist....well at least 4 me! yupz i agree tt im easily touched n perhaps to mani....its pure euphemism 2 sae tt i tend 2 appreciate e pple ard me more...whichever the case....my stand still holds....coz i choose believe tt dere is a "Tong Hua" in my life.... & Monokuro Boo ;
11:16 AM
Thursday, August 18, 2005 last 7 official days in nanyang...tink i will realli miss nanyang a great deal (thanks to e NUS bidding system!)...beginning 2 realli luv e time spent in sch....even though its a time of intense pressure...im enjoying myself in lectures n tutorials more den ever...prelims is cumin in less den 2 weeks....i havent finish wif revision...but i tink its ok...i jus hope tt i'll be blessed wif a calm n steady mind during e exams period...not wif full preparations though but i believe i shld at least do better den e mid years....hope tt all turn out well!tokin bout e NUS bidding system....it makes my blood boil! dun be mistaken...its not me who is bidding....its my frens....since im like e onli 'free' person during all their lecture time...i had e honour of helping them 2 bid 4 e tutorial slots....e stoopid system was down e entire day n i was practically facing my com frm 1pm - 1130pm for e whole of yest aftn....MY GOSH! wat an irritating system! pist me off so badly....when its my turn 2 go into uni...i mite jus as well consider gg into NTU instead coz it saves me all e bidding trouble! aman was suggesting tt i stay in hall next year too....not a bad idea after all....its gettin me enticed...but den again i had wanted all along 2 enter NUS coz most of my frens r already dere.....moreover i dun realli wanna take business in NTU...(actualli neither FASS in NUS!)....so i guess now sae so much also no use....perhaps shld jus wait 4 my results 2b out in march nxt year den decide where exactly i wanna go.....its still too early rite now! & Monokuro Boo ;
4:53 PM
Saturday, August 13, 2005 hmmm...back again...twice a day....haf been feelin rather tired n kinda depressed after econs mock paper 2dae....as mentioned in e previous entry....im basically screwed left right and centre....tot i wld feel better but i jus feel nt right leh...im jus veri vexed over e upcoming prelims n all e uncompleted revision up 2 date.....my ankle is nt realli recovering tt well after all.....felt tt it was bruised even though e bones dun hurt anymore....now i feel tt e pain is mounting frm e side n nt e back.....sigh....so irritating....but well perhaps dis is where ur frens cum into e picture...despite 1 injured foot...i still decided 2 go down 2 funan wif barney 2 find her 6 metres cable wire 2dae....heeheez...n guess wat....my dearest barney came and brought along a blackforest cake for me....wah...wat a pleasant surprise n i luv surprises too! okie 4 tt moment i din noe wat 2 sae *as u noe im nt realli a veri expressive person n im nt realli gd wif words* n i kinda 4got 2 sae thank you la......although i din express it but i was kinda happie bout it......rite barney?!!? hahahah.....u made my day...like always! n in e end coz dere was no fork or spoon...mus use hands 2 eat....n it was veri nice....nicer den any other cakes tt ive eaten coz first of all its genuinely gd quality blackforest cake which i cld smell b4 i even ate....thankie barney!! i realli APPRECIATE e extra mile u walked 2 get me e cake which made me realli happie n im all motivated 2 study even harder again! coz of sum issues tt ive decided 2b more appreciative 2 pple ard me....im still learnin 2 b more expressive coz im rather paiseh bout tellin others wat i realli feel......but i guess sumtings no need 2 sae.....if its meant 4 u...i believe u will feel it.....so need me sae more?!?! & Monokuro Boo ;
10:57 PM
okie...back frm sch after econs mock exams....screwed up dis time round....badly i tink coz i din manage my time properly n i suddenly forgot how 2 plot e stupid graph n table...tink if i can get more den 25 marks for e 3 essays it will be quite gd already....well i dun realli wanna care...afterall its onli e mock exams...but for e sake of my bright future....i cannot gif up...i wanna see how sum pple can continue 2 act like a smirk when i stand up n beat u hands down....jus watch it!recently sprained my left ankle again...guess its nuthin new....best part is i dun even noe when i sprained it...jus woke up 3 mornings ago feelin tt my ankle ligaments hurt n tt my ankle joint is nt sitting properly coz as i walk i felt tt tingling sensation of e friction of my bones.....it SUX! so i tahan 1 day n went 2 sch limping ard......yest aftn decided 2 go see e sinseh after sch....met barney 4 lunch n den we went down 2 e sinseh together......sum acupunture n twisting of my foot which left me quite shock.......but i cld walk wif much ease after tt.....*thank God*....took a cab straight home coz too lazy 2 walk 2 e bus stop again......attempted 2 study 4 econs test but to no avail.......*how 2 study when barney is ard rite?!* i keep getting distracted by e tv la.....n finally when she decided 2 go take aftn nap on my comfortable bed..under my blankie too n wif e air con....I HAD 2 STUDY...so sad....c pple slp den ownself cannot slp...n wats worst was tt i was so tired tt i fell aslp on e dining table....drank coffee 2 keep myself awake n e blissful gal slept till e sun almost set rite!?!??!? & Monokuro Boo ;
12:13 PM
Saturday, August 06, 2005 i jus came back frm FOP 2005.....wow hoh.....honour n glory 2 God man! it was once again another refreshing n recharged experience 4 me....dis time round was a little more interesting coz i invited my clique of frens down 2 join e Christian community at e indoor stadium......amanda, michelle n tara....hope tt u guys haf a had a gr8 experience too.....im so glad tt aman had told me tt she wans 2 go back for more n tt ive 2 jio her along 2 FOP 2006 too.....so glad tt tara told me tt she felt e holy spirit moving n she was so overwhelmed tt she cried....ive no doubt tt God is beginning His gr8 works in their lives.....n im so glad tt God is using me 2 allow the words of His Kingdom 2 be spreaded 2 my dear frens.....im ready 2 share....r u all ready too? i finalli understood e meaning of takin e 1st step in spreading e glory of God...n He will take care of e rest....dun believe me??......ATTEND FOP & INVITE UR FRENS TOO! wahahahaha! & Monokuro Boo ;
1:07 AM
