Thursday, December 29, 2005 actualli im referring to blood donation...tts right...its the 8th time but i tink i 'din quite learn my lesson' *quoting frm my mother*...yest after donating blood i went to KTV wif deb n mic....wow...boy it was fun coz it has been 5 mths since i last went K-box...sang our lungs out for 5 hrs...after which we went 4 dinner and headed home.....now comes the trouble....i boarded a super crowded bus 124 which allowed me jus enuf space to stand and nt move ard...i was standing under dis super strong air-con outlet on a rainy nite...*wat a luck* annd i began to feel realli cold......out of a sudden i felt myself perspiring....and it was cold sweat....i jus knew it......it was 1 of those pre-blackout symptoms which i experienced years b4 during my sec sch red cross days...the stupid bus was jerking at e same time....i couldnt breathe properly and i tot i was dying anytime....quickly sat down on e seat in front of me as i was already seeing 'stars'....my vision became veri limited....jus e front view....side view was totalli gone....smthg like white screens..dunno how 2 describe ....finalli it was time 2 alight....stood up and held e metal bars real tightly in case my leg turns wobbly....okie...so far so gd..nuthin bad happened....and of coz i tot i was jus tired jus nw.....whu noes i was wrong.......i had to climb dis long flight of stairs b4 i can reach home....so after the swift climb up.....the symptoms came back 2 haunt me....dis time i felt dizziness and on top of tt my breathing difficulty worsened.....i waited for the lift which took years to arrive....went into it and at tt point....i tot God was cumin to take me to heaven.....i nv felt so terrible in my life....frm e reflection of myself thru e mirrors inside e lift.....i cld see tt i was pale....my lips had gone frm red to dunno wat colour...jus veri pale.....i was damn scared....i keep telling God.....i dun wanna die now....and when i finalli managed to reach home....i immediately sat down on my hse sofa to rest....lifted my legs and closed my eyes to allow more regulated blood flow....after a while i decided to msg barney...*jus in case i die den at least sum1 noes wat happened to me b4*....told my dad tt i wasnt feeling well too.....din bother any1 else coz dun wanna pple to worrie too....took a long rest b4 i headed 4 a quick bath.....*scared later faint inside e toilet*.....later in e nite....my mom came home wif my supper and continued her rant about my stupidity in volunteering for blood donation which always coz me unnecessary risk.....after much tots....i still tink wat im doin is right...mayb nxt time i shld jus nt go KTV after donating blood but cum home and rest instead....yups....there will still be a next time....but i hope i dun experience the 'im almost gg 2 heaven' symptoms.....Thank God for your protection and grace!!我们应该停止了想念 才可能快乐一点无论是谁爱深谁爱浅 都已是过往云烟你太擅长对爱情冒险 让我觉得不安全于是心情开始疲倦 任性就说出再见我们以为分手了 就能拥有自由的机会 你躲在别的爱浮沉 我在寂寞里伤悲你不要说抱歉 是我放你走远我们的爱像一种季节 冬天过了却不是春天在各自世界继续沉淀 当地球转到黑夜那边你有没有梦见我的泪 
