Wednesday, March 08, 2006 the thing tt keeps my mind wondering all e time nowadays..wat is life in e veri near future gg 2b like..a feeling of uncertainty lingers over my mind..e biggest worry.."am i gg 2 make it to NUS?"..seriously its driving me up e wall..its nt tt i dun trust God..its nt tt i wanna be e smart aleck to believe tt im gg 2b able 2 settle all dis shit by myself and not depend on Him..its jus tt i jus cannot sit back and do nuthin about it..i admit tt im a person tt likes to plan ahead of time..i like my life to be arranged in such a way tt i MUST noe wats e next ting cumin up ahead..i hate sudden changes in my life..i dun like e feeling of having to anticipate..i wld rather noe everything before hand so tt i can make prior arrangements..but dis time im jus so helpless..i dunno wat i can do to help myself to e fullest..wat is gg 2 happen dis time again..wat exactly is it now? "Let go and let God"..i wanna learn tt too.. 
