Wednesday, April 19, 2006 life hasnt been a bed of roses for me recently..i dun like wat im doin but yet i hafta convince myself tt its all i can do for now..i detest working life..but bcoz of e money motivation (which is fast dying away) i hafta carry on wif life dis way..bcoz i feel so obligated since my mother is my boss's gd fren! oh Gosh..i shld haf expected such a situation to take place since e 1st day i accepted e shitified job! *worried* uni application is still pending..my future is still uncertain..of coz im nt saying tt once i get into uni my future will be super bright..but at least tts a start..now i dun even noe if i ever haf a chance to get near tt start line..i noe i shld learn 2b contented tt if i get into NTU i shld gladly accept my chance..but any1 ever tot of wat about my NUS? wat about my childhood aspirations? y haf i been working hard all year long for? its definitely not bcoz i wanna do sociology at NTU or social science at SMU...i wan to get into NUS..my arts and social science..oh gdness jus gif tt chance to me!! i will do anything 2 jus get into NUS..donate money..donate time..community svc..donate computer...WHATEVER..i noe im tokin nonsense..but dun blame me..coz desperate time calls for desperate measures... & Monokuro Boo ;
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