the crucial moment of opening e letter arrived dis mrng..i felt like as though e sky fell down on me when i realised it was a rejection letter frm NUS..feels like im being slapped across e face wif a veri rude shock..gosh..i noe its nt e time 2 ask y has dis gotta happen 2 me..i shld realli go n appeal n get all e help i can possibly get 2 get my bum into NUS..but..dere is jus a BIG BUT tt has been running ard my mind e entire day..i tink i somehow lost e interest n fire within me..i dun seem 2 be any more desperate 2 get into NUS..however a little part of me within has yet 2 gif up..i noe i wld regret if i dun try...however im also veri restless at e same time..i shld haf seen dis coming..i jus chose 2 run away frm reality n hence receiving a wake up call dis mrng...how does it feel when u check ur application status daily only 2 find e same old 2 words of "application processing"..but suddenly 2dae it becomes "entry denied"..how i miss those same old 2 words..disappointed n upset..after all dis yrs of hard work..dis is wat i get in return..now we noe y life jus isnt fair..in fact nuthin was meant 2b fair rite frm e start..

& Monokuro Boo ;
12:33 AM

hmmm...jus sum random tots running thru my mind..will be upcoming 20th birthday be an extremely memorable one?!? i jus cannot help but wonder..ahahaha..was rather touched by yichuang (aka my pencil at work!!) when she actualli gathered all my gd frens cum colleague at kino 2 celebrate my bdae on e 11th may..my pencil is always so sweet..ahahaah!! daddy is also throwing a buffet dinner feast 4 me on my bdae itself..e feeling of having my whole extended family celebrating my bdae is kinda gd..even tho its nt here yet..i jus noe tt its gg 2b gd coz i always enjoy e company of my entire family..its so fun and so much warmth!! well well...my sister gang is meetg me on e 21st of may since every1 including myself is so busy wif work and stuff..no choice but 2 haf a belated bdae celebration..but it realli doesnt matter coz 2 me as long as i haf all of ur company..its 1 of e best gift i can ever haf yea!! hmm..barney leh?!? ahahhaha..i dun care arh..as e years go by..i believe barney will be better in springing surprises...ahahahha...so im waiting!!!! WAHAHAHHA!! as for all e other people tt have been up in my mind all dis while..i wun expect too much in case i suffer a greater disappointment..but of coz a little hope still holds in my heart..perhaps u will never ever chance upon dis entry but if u ask me..i wld sae dis is ur best chance ba..so jiayou 2 whom it may concern..ahahha!

& Monokuro Boo ;
12:24 AM