Monday, July 31, 2006 ok dis sounds lame but im realli feeling very lost outta a sudden...i dun like dis feeling...a feeling tt u dunno wats ahead of you n yet u r still supposed 2 go ahead wif e decision made initially...sch is startg soon..n im gg 2 stay in hall frm nxt week onwards...stayin in hall has been 1 of e greatest appeal but right now at dis moment...i feel like i realli wanna back out...is dis university blues tt im suffering from?!?! dere seem 2b so much chore to go thru jus 2 stay in hall..not to mention my roomie has withdrawn frm uni coz she is gg sumwhere else 2 study...tt isnt e most decisive factor 2 me..but e tot of having 2 miss home realli sux! no doubt i got e hall i wanted...e newest, nicest n aircon hall...wif e best facilities in e entire campus....but i seem 2 haf lost e spirit...e enthusiastic hall spirit within me...i had to miss my hall camp coz of my injured back...n even up to dis moment i still harbour intentions about gg 2 nus....yup dis shld nt be e case but wat 2 do...its nt tt i wanna feel dis way...i cant control my tots and feelings either...i hate e way im feeling now....i realli hate it.....it feels so difficult 2 convince myself tt i wanna stay in hall...but can i sae 'no thank you' instead? its e point of no return (for e time being)....n u noe wat....whenever dis sudden feeling of lonesome hits me...i wanna cry...i realli feel like crying...n dis sux.... & Monokuro Boo ;
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i jus came back frm ntu union camp n i mus sae it was e best camp i ever went...SHAGGY ROX! the ghost walk was 1 event which i'll never ever forget...wahkaoz...scared e living hell outta me..even tho u cannot believe it but i was REALLY SCARED...walking ALONE into sum unknown place in total darkness n suddenly greeted by sum1 dressed totally in white holding a red lantern...pls imagine e rest urself...summore now is e 7th month...WAH....*shivers*of coz not forgetting all e lame games we had 2 play n also e nonsense forfeits we had 2 do...even tho it was total embarrassment 2 perform sum task in public but on hindsight it was those crap tt made dis union camp e most memorable...i was totally shagged but i nv regretted being there! sad thing was i cldnt be involved in all e water games if nt dis cld haf been greater fun! i got 2 know 2 bunch of crazy n fun-loving peeps whom i'll never forget...n seniors too...always there for us..never ever showed a slight hint of fatigue....jus like an energiser bunny! if it wasnt for u all...camp n shaggy wld nv haf been e same...even tho i hurt my back in dis camp...its alrite...its worth all e trouble of being unable 2 squat n bend for e time being! thank you shaggy! & Monokuro Boo ;
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Sunday, July 02, 2006 ever wondered e sudden serenity tt mite come knocking at ur door when u keep confessing in guilt n den sum1 puts his fingers on ur lips saying "....ssshhhh...dun say a word...." & Monokuro Boo ;
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