Monday, July 31, 2006 ok dis sounds lame but im realli feeling very lost outta a sudden...i dun like dis feeling...a feeling tt u dunno wats ahead of you n yet u r still supposed 2 go ahead wif e decision made initially...sch is startg soon..n im gg 2 stay in hall frm nxt week onwards...stayin in hall has been 1 of e greatest appeal but right now at dis moment...i feel like i realli wanna back out...is dis university blues tt im suffering from?!?! dere seem 2b so much chore to go thru jus 2 stay in hall..not to mention my roomie has withdrawn frm uni coz she is gg sumwhere else 2 study...tt isnt e most decisive factor 2 me..but e tot of having 2 miss home realli sux! no doubt i got e hall i wanted...e newest, nicest n aircon hall...wif e best facilities in e entire campus....but i seem 2 haf lost e spirit...e enthusiastic hall spirit within me...i had to miss my hall camp coz of my injured back...n even up to dis moment i still harbour intentions about gg 2 nus....yup dis shld nt be e case but wat 2 do...its nt tt i wanna feel dis way...i cant control my tots and feelings either...i hate e way im feeling now....i realli hate it.....it feels so difficult 2 convince myself tt i wanna stay in hall...but can i sae 'no thank you' instead? its e point of no return (for e time being)....n u noe wat....whenever dis sudden feeling of lonesome hits me...i wanna cry...i realli feel like crying...n dis sux.... & Monokuro Boo ;
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