Friday, September 22, 2006 its good 2b home...im finally back home! no more dreadful hall stays..no more homesickness! yeay! i havent really been so relieved 4 sucha long time...guess being back at home is e best remedy 2 all e problems n headaches tt r revolving my life man! n 2dae is e best day in my entire 2 months in NTU becoz....1) i dun hafta stay in hall anymore..2) it recess nxt week = no school! (yesh!)3) i got my 1st A grade in uni 2dae4) i got 2 A grades in a single day...ive no idea how i got e A grades but i realli thank God walking me thru dis realli bad time of my life..i realli qns n doubt God a lot of times in dis 2 mths but i guess since im here already...i tink God has brought me thru it..at least 4 half a semester (better den nothing wat!) up till now im still not over e wonderful surprise though! thank God! hahahaha...of coz i wun forget all my frens 4 listening 2 my nonsense n whines every nite....esp 2 amanda n barney....thanks aman for e company almost every nite in hall...i noe its realli far 4 u 2 walk all e way 2 my hall but u still did it anyway...i realli appreciate e effort n time spent together toking...it has been great time studying together n i realli wun noe how 2 survive hall stay w/o u! thanks gal..love u lots!thanks barney for always calling me 2 tok whenever im down n out...i nv fail 2 scare u many times in dis 2 mths but u still entertained my crap everytime...well rachoo noes u wun 'zhong se qing you' indeed...hahaha...u've proved urself!! hahaha...dunno wat else 2 sae 2 u except thank you...thank you n a million THANK YOUs....love u lots too....as for e many of you whom im did not mention...u r not forgotten...jus tt its a bit too long 2 thank everybody here....i jus wanna sae i thank you for being here 4 me all dis time.... & Monokuro Boo ;
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Saturday, September 16, 2006 its pretty weird tt i can be so accomodating yet stubborn at e same time..no matter wat everyone tells me i jus refuse 2 listen..yup i may agree but i jus like 2 do tings my way...n dis stubborness of mine is driving me up e wall..in a worse sense...2 my grave...i mus hold on 2 my values n promises..i mus not relent 2 my own selfish wants n realli consider 4 others..i mus learn 2 flare when im pissed...coz i tink accumulated anger n frustration causes depression...for now..im jus waiting 2 go home...e feeling of leaving hall for home is realli gd..ive been waiting 4 dis day 2 cum since my 1st nite in hall...i hope tt after gg home, it will be a fresh beginning for me...done n over wif all e depression n moodswings...rid off all e stupid tots in my head...in search of happiness..e old days where things were much simpler..when i was much more innocent..everything was jus there and then...i realli wan happiness..can u gif it 2 me? & Monokuro Boo ;
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Sunday, September 10, 2006 im depressed...im so sorrie if i havent been acting rational or normal recently..i cant help it..i hate e way im behaving nowadays...i hate e way i dun wanna tok 2 pple...i hate e way im slowly becoming an introvert...i hate e way i dread gg 2 sch...i hate e way i hafta put on wif my workload..i hate e way i hafta eat alone...i hate e way i hafta study all nite long in hall...i hate living such a life...please....is dere a way out? & Monokuro Boo ;
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006 its weird how i always go ard saying i dun haf enuf time 4 so many tings yet i still manage to find e time 2 blog...week 5 into uni life...e supposedly fun time isnt workg out 4 me...i see it as more of a stress time...sociology is smthg tt nv occur to me b4...one of my tutors said, 'the study of social science is a shortcut to maturity'...how true is tt? isit y im feeling so 'off' nowadays...coz im beginning 2 realise that e world isnt wat i always tot it seem 2b...as e saying goes 'ignorance is bliss'...perhaps to me...i tink rather that 'innocence is bliss'....i cant seem 2 explain y im feeling so down all dis time...since e day sch started...my life has taken a 180 deg change...i need my keys to happiness...where r u? a new term i learnt in sociology....'anomie'..also known as 'normless-ness' among e pple in e world 2dae...we dunno wat we've gotten ourselves into and we dunno wat is expected of us...its a 'lost' feeling tt u feel all e time...isit bcoz e more i noe..e more depress i get...or isit bcoz knowledge is pouring in too fast.. too sudden...too much 4 me to accept... & Monokuro Boo ;
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