Thursday, November 30, 2006 its a funnie feeling tt im getting..its jus weird...it jus feels as tho another part of me is gg 2b born..some1 tt i dunno all my life..(dun make sense!?!?)..ya i tink ive no idea wat im tokin about already...but e crap about dis whole ting is tt I CANT SLEEP! im having insomnia...its damn serious! im already so tired after 2 mugging days and 1 whole day out at the movies..i shld be slpg like a log now...but y am i still blogging...oh gdness..it cant be more obvious tt i realli dunno wat i can do since i cant slp! oh God...wat is happening...dun like tt can or not (im actually bargaining wif God now!)..i feel like crap...am i realli tinking too much? i realli dunno! oh gosh..gif hint also dun neither here nor dere leh...i get very 'pek chek' leh! ok mayb its unnecessary stress...HAIYA...i wanna slap myself...im jus so irritating...y cant i jus be more sure about myself...ive been trying 2 keep my life on track all e time n i seldom fail 2 do so...but y when it comes 2 dis...im jus so helpless about it...shucks..i realli feel damn sick! & Monokuro Boo ;
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Friday, November 24, 2006 hey you..doesnt matter about all e disappointing results..its ok..life is nt all about results rite..i noe wif e effort n time spent its jus so disgusting 2c unpleasant grades...but every1 has been thru tt stage isnt it...wat is impt is focus on e exams now...its realli damn difficult 2 control ur attention span i noe but u hafta perservere..jiayou my dearest barney aka 'sister-in-christ'...hahaha...u haf walked thru 3 sems...after e 4th dec u will be free again...WE CAN DO IT ok...JIAYOU! dun gif up...dun be discouraged...dun tink bout it! "Be alert, stand firm in the faith, be brave, be strong." 1 Corinthians 16:13...jiayou...wif lotsa luv frm rachoo... & Monokuro Boo ;
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Wednesday, November 15, 2006 a few nights ago i was tokin 2 mom...n its quite interesting 2 hear how my mother likes 2 tok about guys nowadays..i wonder is it a hint 2 me 2 quickly find a boyfren? aniwae...she seems 2 tink tt i'll like e kind of guy tt she likes or i wld sae 'prefer' as a 'son-in-law'...so after a nite of friendly argument (dotz)...this is my mother's list...Mom's List1) filial - impt ting is must be nice 2 her!2) preferably rich?!?!3) soft-spoken - according 2 her its gd coz i can bully nxt time!4) good boy - must be 'guai guai' ..like see her must greet 'auntie'but of coz i beg 2 differ a great deal! so after some tots..i came out wif a list..its a simple basic list of 3 prerequisites 4 my 'ideal' guy....so my list goes...My List1) 1.75cm and above - worse come to worse at least taller than me la! (which is 1.72cm)2) loves God - only then he will noe how to love me!3) loves his family - a guy who has close-knit family will stray less!so now i'll open my eyes big big...if u noe of any1 wif e above qualities of MY LIST...tell me! dis kind of rare species see already cannot let go! ahahahaha... & Monokuro Boo ;
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Saturday, November 11, 2006 Sometimes when you’ve studied so hard..feel so motivated 4 dunno wat reason..probably jus a sudden rush of adrenaline tt makes u wanna ‘pia’ all e way….den after all e fuss..u sit back n relax a little…n den disaster struck! U start asking yourself why are u doing all dis for? Is it worth all e time and effort? Is educational credit really so impt? Is worrying for results all my life e way 2 go? Bullshit man…I dun like 2 study! But bcoz I haf a dream…im willing 2 do dis 4 my dream…its not sum big time aspiration..in fact its jus smthg very simple…I wan 2 take a family portrait…wif my whole extended family…I wan it 2b done wif my graduation suit…I wan 2c everybody cum together 4 a family foto…n for that reason…it keeps me going amidst all dis crap im gg thru in university…for tt dream 2b fulfilled…racheal will persevere! Take my words for it man! & Monokuro Boo ;
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Saturday, November 04, 2006 oh my gdness..i realli hate the month of november..every year at this period of time i'll be slogging my guts out 4 e ever anticipated exams...gosh would exams jus go away...it kills e joy of learning!! jus when i tot that sch was nt tt bad after all, e stupid exams mus come n spoil my mood! trying to not procrastinate but my mind jus keeps wondering ard...and perhaps away too! hahaha! ya..long time since i realli laugh out loud..long time since i realli laugh sincerely...right from e bottom of my heart...how 2 laugh when my life is not exactly fulfilling...neither is it sad or unfortunate...so how does it feel being stuck somewhere in e middle...well...simple...it sux! some random tots...was on e train home from sch a couple of days ago...had a little boy (who suffered mild down-syndrome) wif his mom sitting beside me while i was trying 2 focus on reading my notes...and e little boy beside me was pretty entertaining actually...he tried to catch my attention by waving at me n making funnie faces...hahaha...he was jus so cute n so i decided 2 stop reading n 'played' wif him...his sincere expression of laughter simply enticed me...i haf not seen tt kind of expression 4 such a long time...i guess e simple emotion of feeling happie only exist in a world like his...not meant to be in a life like mine? leaves me wif so many questions once again...perhaps not questions...jus indifference...sometimes i wonder if being ignorant is better? coz wif simplicity...it brings happiness...e true ones...sometimes if i cld haf a choice...i wished i was nv here... & Monokuro Boo ;
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