Saturday, November 04, 2006 oh my gdness..i realli hate the month of november..every year at this period of time i'll be slogging my guts out 4 e ever anticipated exams...gosh would exams jus go away...it kills e joy of learning!! jus when i tot that sch was nt tt bad after all, e stupid exams mus come n spoil my mood! trying to not procrastinate but my mind jus keeps wondering ard...and perhaps away too! hahaha! ya..long time since i realli laugh out loud..long time since i realli laugh sincerely...right from e bottom of my heart...how 2 laugh when my life is not exactly fulfilling...neither is it sad or unfortunate...so how does it feel being stuck somewhere in e middle...well...simple...it sux! some random tots...was on e train home from sch a couple of days ago...had a little boy (who suffered mild down-syndrome) wif his mom sitting beside me while i was trying 2 focus on reading my notes...and e little boy beside me was pretty entertaining actually...he tried to catch my attention by waving at me n making funnie faces...hahaha...he was jus so cute n so i decided 2 stop reading n 'played' wif him...his sincere expression of laughter simply enticed me...i haf not seen tt kind of expression 4 such a long time...i guess e simple emotion of feeling happie only exist in a world like his...not meant to be in a life like mine? leaves me wif so many questions once again...perhaps not questions...jus indifference...sometimes i wonder if being ignorant is better? coz wif simplicity...it brings happiness...e true ones...sometimes if i cld haf a choice...i wished i was nv here... 
