Monday, January 29, 2007 yesterday nite was 1 of those nites when i went to bed with the most number of dreams which i still could remember when i woke up in the morning! hahaha...those were really sweet dreams...n it kept me happie 4 e entire day actually...why does it seem so real n i was really happie 2 e extent tt i woke up feeling so blissful! okie i tink im kinda living in my own world...but can dreams be my reality? & Monokuro Boo ;
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Tuesday, January 23, 2007 pple say leaders are made and not born..but den b4 you can be made a leader i believe u have to prove that you can be reliable enuf first b4 u will be nurtured into one! well im proud to say that ive held various kinds of leadership position for the past years of my life..and still holding on to some right now...however i never felt so stifled in my entire life up till this moment! i noe the obligations and responsibilities involved in holding leadership positions..i noe many pple will be watching me and r concerned over how i act..apparently i noe tt im supposed 2b a gd example for the others to learn and follow..but leaders r human beings too...i need a break too! i noe every institution has its rules and regulations and as leaders means we represent the institution...but wat if my stand does not go well with the stand of the institution..wat if i dun see eye 2 eye wif wat im told to do or act...does it mean tt i no longer fit e bill? does it mean tt i shld jus step down and bcum some ordinary being tt can regain their 'freedom' to do anything they wish to...i noe ultimately dis is still an issue btw me n the higher being from above...but i tink its realli madness to have to feel so compelled and obliged to e extent that i feel my personal rights and freedom haf been compromised...if i realli wanna be irresposible i wld choose to gif it up and return 2 my gd old days...however bcoz i believe tt is not wat God wants to see me doing...therefore i cannot do it...ARGH...jus let me rant! & Monokuro Boo ;
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Tuesday, January 09, 2007 sch started and im glad 2 sae tt it was much better den expected...managed 2 get all e mods tt i wanted so plan running smoothly e way i wanted it to...no tutorials dis week n so i haf a 3 day week...wat more cld i ask for?!?! hahaha...well i had some tots on e way home frm sch 2dae...came up wif a 2007 to-do list tt somehow works like a resolution thingy....it basically consist of e things i wanna complete in 2007...so it goes like dis...1) Score more As & achieve a GPA of 4.52) take up a refresher course for keyboard class3) build a closer relationship wif God4) bring more pple to Christ (havent tot of how many tho!)5) lose weight (>5kg)6) visit Hongkong for a holiday7) putting my pride aside & be more straightforwardi kinda hope tt i can fulfil e above to-do list dis yr..hopefully by 2008 when im lookg thru my past entries...i can proudly gif myself a pat on e shoulder n say 'well done' for completing all e above! rather than thinking about e things i cannot achieve or do...i wld channel my energy to making all e listed stuff work out! ask myself many times wats e point of pondering over some things tt were probably not meant to be..cant come up wif a reason but i tink i still hafta try 2 put things aside and learn how 2 take things in my stride...used to be quite gd in taking things in my stride but i tink i sort of lost it over e mths & yrs....sometimes i dun quite understand myself too! life jus gets more complex when more pple start coming into it...wats worst is tt u cant exactly make up who r those who came in...sigh...my tots r jus becoming more n more random...nvm...all e best to myself...moreover with God by my side, who can be against me! jiayou! & Monokuro Boo ;
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Saturday, January 06, 2007 its terrible when u cant decide whether u shld say smthg or nt...it sux very badly when u keep seeing tt person n u r dying 2 say smthg but den ur responsibilities, obligations and other factors r jus pulling u back...argh! im jus so worried n afraid tt everything else mite jus change once it comes out frm my mouth...so wat is e conclusion? shld i sae or nt...CRAP! & Monokuro Boo ;
12:53 AM
Tuesday, January 02, 2007 long time since i ever had dinner wif my parents...nice dinner wif mum n dad..we had lobsters and steak and grilled salmon...i enjoyed all ambience n great food and many wld sae tt i had a great start 2 a new yr....but sumhow i jus feel not right...i dun like e way im feeling...if u r close enuf 2 me..you shld noe y im feeling all dis crap now...another yr of guessing game? oh gosh...no more can its very torturous.... & Monokuro Boo ;
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Monday, January 01, 2007 Happie 2007...e yr 2006 din quite end wif a bang...so 2007 din quite start wif a bang too...but its ok...i jus hope tt e upcoming yr is gg 2b 1 tt i realli look forward to....lotsa ups and downs in 2006....realli lots of dem...i wld say tt it was a very significant yr of my life...i kinda like and dislike it...cant quite decide tho...jus wanna tell all my loved ones tt includes my family, 'sisters', LHC-ians, church sisters & brothers, kino darlings tt life has been great wif u guys ard! yup no doubt tt i was kinda in my 'down-est' period of my life dis yr...but den i wldnt haf make it thru w/o all e above mentioned pple! of coz i din forget 2 thank God...for He haf been always ard...always watching over me frm above...always loving me no matter wat! tho ive been rebellious and naughty a lot of times...tho ive cast Him aside a lot of times...i noe He nv did forsake me! sorry and thank you Lord for being a wonderful and loving and forgiving God...i love you too! Aniwae there r realli lotsa things i wish for dis new yr...i wun call dem resolutions coz i dun quite believe in such tings...i noe some things r not supposed 2b forced...but den pray...if God tinks its right...den it will happen...i dun quite wanna tink bout it...call it running away frm reality...but i choose 2c it as having faith and casting it upon God for He noes wats best for me....i wanna walk by faith not sight! thank God for e wonderful results...im realli thankful and now it feels great! sch still sux...but not as bad...very motivated 2 do even better nxt sem! okie rachoo tired le...time 2 rest....may e new yr come wif great blessings! & Monokuro Boo ;
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