Tuesday, January 23, 2007 pple say leaders are made and not born..but den b4 you can be made a leader i believe u have to prove that you can be reliable enuf first b4 u will be nurtured into one! well im proud to say that ive held various kinds of leadership position for the past years of my life..and still holding on to some right now...however i never felt so stifled in my entire life up till this moment! i noe the obligations and responsibilities involved in holding leadership positions..i noe many pple will be watching me and r concerned over how i act..apparently i noe tt im supposed 2b a gd example for the others to learn and follow..but leaders r human beings too...i need a break too! i noe every institution has its rules and regulations and as leaders means we represent the institution...but wat if my stand does not go well with the stand of the institution..wat if i dun see eye 2 eye wif wat im told to do or act...does it mean tt i no longer fit e bill? does it mean tt i shld jus step down and bcum some ordinary being tt can regain their 'freedom' to do anything they wish to...i noe ultimately dis is still an issue btw me n the higher being from above...but i tink its realli madness to have to feel so compelled and obliged to e extent that i feel my personal rights and freedom haf been compromised...if i realli wanna be irresposible i wld choose to gif it up and return 2 my gd old days...however bcoz i believe tt is not wat God wants to see me doing...therefore i cannot do it...ARGH...jus let me rant! 
