Monokuro Boo *

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

dis simply struck me when a gd fren asked...'are you in love wif love?' wat do i tink...interestingly enuf...perhaps its a yes...let me tink about it...i will find an ans soon enuf i believe...

& Monokuro Boo ;
12:22 AM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

i mus say tt e last week was e most hectic wk of my entire sem 2! gosh...presentation datelines after datelines...i felt like i had no breathing space! i was totally zonk out....n now im down wif a very bad throat n cough....all e late nites of stress accumulated to a breakdown in my immune system! im glad glad glad tt its over! although e exams are yet to be here...but i tink i wun be stressed till e extent i was as last week! but even tho so...i also hafta add tt last wk was e best wk of crap n fun i had in sch admist all e datelines! im beginning to enjoy sch wif gd company! haha! also mus thank God for his grace and protection for e entire hectic week...i felt realli close to Him esp in e whole of last wk...i tink its when one go thru tough times that God's presence will be even more real than ever!
ok im sounding like im in a serious dilemma now....for e 1st half of e week i felt e fire n passion for God...realli wanted to sing praise to Him b4 i slp every nite! but den after all my presentation is done on thur...i was so exhausted tt i cldnt be bothered to spare a bit of time to do my usual 'toking to God' routine...is it me being selfish? or is it jus...WHAT? i cant tink of anything else apart frm me being self-centred...settled my business den throw God to 1 side! n wats worst is tt i still haf e little struggle within myself to hafta spend e entire sat aftn in church frm 430-930...since i now attend 2 svcs....hmmm..i realli need some motivation to continue dis in e long run! n i guess e 'its all for God' motivation ought to be sustained throughout to make things work out...i hafta pray about dis...jiayou racheal...you are on a quest to be closer to your heavenly father! i simply love the way my life is being filled wif His great love!

& Monokuro Boo ;
12:37 AM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

honestly im TOTALLY sick of having to keep enquiring about the flight and hotel prices for my HK trip...yes i noe its my duty to go n find out about the prices and try my best to get e most economical price plans for my family! BUT i seriously get super PISSED OFF when dad keep ranting n ranting about how much cheaper it will be to book e hotel HIMSELF..and on the other hand keep wanting ME to go n find out more about the different prices frm e agency! if he is not tired of dis...I AM TIRED! dis is freaking pissing me off very badly...n e more i tolerate n keep quiet...e more frustrated i get on e inside! dis is supposed to be MY 21st bdae treat n reward for e gd results last sem..but now i feel like even before i go for dis trip...its such a torture! if you are so free den go enquire yourself and make all e comparisons and for God's sake book the tickets and confirm the hotel's availability..after all dis is done...den come n let me noe! im totally not interested in dis IRRITATING process! if i had a choice and e money...i will rather go on a holiday wif my friends...its terribly upsetting to make plans for holiday wif my parents! im sorrie ive to say dis but dis is because im so terribly pissed off! everyone has got a limit and occassional moodswings alrite.....enough is enough!

& Monokuro Boo ;
10:31 PM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

a song which i like very much..the song that invaded my mind b4 bedtime yest...smthg sweet to share...

Butterfly Kisses

There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven, and she’s daddy’s little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night,
She talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank God for all the joy in my life, But most of all...
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin’ little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony daddy, it’s my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I’ve done wrong, I must have done something right.
To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today.
She’s looking like her momma a little more every day.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings in a great big world. But I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin’ little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you daddy, but if you don’t mind,
I’m only going to kiss you on cheek this time."
With all that I’ve done wrong, I must have done something right.
To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precise time.
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly, spread your wings and fly.

She’ll change her name today.
She’ll make a promise, and I’ll give her away.
Standing in the bride room just staring at her.
She asked me what I’m thinking, and I said, "I’m not sure,
I just feel like I’m losing my baby girl."
Then she leaned over... and gave me...

Butterfly kisses, with her mama there.
Stickin’ little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk me down the aisle daddy, it’s just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty daddy?" "Daddy don’t cry."
With all that I’ve done wrong, I must have done something right.
To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses.
I couldn’t ask God for more, man, this is what love is.
I know I’ve gotta let her go, but I’ll always remember.
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses...

& Monokuro Boo ;
11:23 AM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

honestly i dunno wat e heck is troubling me...its jus unexplainable...im so tired and lethargic already...i dun really wanna care...jus leave me alone!
"Dear God, i only wanna tok to you coz you are e only 1 who doesn't give me unnecessary problems. It is you alone that i trust fully. This world is just a disappointment and there is absolutely no use to put any hope in it."

& Monokuro Boo ;
9:07 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

read my everybody's blog jus now...didnt realised that wat i wrote wld haf such an impact though! everybody you are not forgotten and will never be! i guess its true about what pple usually say about 'xin1 you3 ling2 xi1 yi4 dian3 tong1' (telepathy)...well sometimes no need to 'dian3' also will 'tong1'...like wat xiaoshi and i like to do the 'are you tinking wat im tinkin B1..yes i am B2' nonsense...hahah...quite rubbish but it does make some sense at times! sometimes you dun need a person to tell you outrightly that he/she is not feeling good...all you need to do is 'sense' it...if you are somewhere at that level...you will know what i am toking about! what happens when i cant seem to 'feel' it....well i will pray about it...ask God to attend to that person...or perhaps give me a vision to noe what is going on! it works all the time (or as far as i noe...it worked so far for me)...smthg rather random that invaded my mind...'take a step back..and you will see the picture clearer than you tink'...i guess smthg which i already am aware of...that still very much applies to my life now! pple often clutch everything so tightly to themselves that they leave their arms too full to embrace the present! the art of detachment...im on my way to master it yea...

to my everybody, i heard smthg frm the radio a few days ago...'who will you tink of when you are down and out?'...well you will still be the 1st few pple that comes to my mind...even tho ive mia-ed for some time but you were never forgotten! i may not say it coz you noe im not very expressive when it comes to emotions...(tho i tok so much all e time..but when it comes to serious stuff about myself im quite a sucker! hahaha)...well everybody jiayou in your quest in learning how to become a better person! if not ive conduct anger management 1101E for you soon...hahaha...rem always to think b4 you act and take a step back instead of being insistent all e time...dun ever tink that you've given too much but rather believe that you can do better all e time....dis is e little secret to 'success'..ahahaha! you are not the world but you mite mean the world to someone tho! hahah...find joy in giving n once you get e hang of it...you cant get enuf of it! most importantly love God with all your heart! all e best my everybody...i noe you can do it...(if not how can you be my everybody rite??!?!?!hahaha!)

& Monokuro Boo ;
1:33 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007

my parents are one of e few reasons why i still believe that true love exists in this world...

& Monokuro Boo ;
12:45 AM

Sunday, March 04, 2007

opps..i tink im in for some trouble...sounds pretty weird but i tink i heard God speaking to me yest! yes its God speaking...looks like that previous lifestyle of mine has not been so 'right' in that sense...i had lotsa fun 'mambo-jamboing' but den after yest i suddenly decided that perhaps its jus not so right indulging in drinks and stupid things till e wee hrs of the mrng! dere seems to be a smthg telling me this, 'do not step in further..u noe why'...oh gosh...im like in a state of ambivalence...neither here nore there! tired..thats wat i tink i am...

& Monokuro Boo ;
2:44 PM

Thursday, March 01, 2007

wohoo...i went for mambo nite at zouk yest for e 1st time n it was superb! get high man...non-stop action frm 11pm all e way to 4am...dis is madness n im so into it tt i wanna go back again soon! oh man why din i go to zouk in e past lo...so dumb...nvm..better late den never! opps...hahaha...no wonder zouk is 'the club'...i gues it has reasons for being so....n why was i nt so into clubbing previously? coz all e clubs i went seriously cannot make it! dis is e best experience n i'll go back for more! mambo jambo anyone? hahaha...

& Monokuro Boo ;
5:39 PM