Wednesday, April 25, 2007 im seriously screwed for today's paper..OMG...i never felt so helpless n i was furiously 'smoking' away in e exam hall! OMG OMG OMG...im trying to stop myself frm falling into a depression...its a stupid 'i-mus-remain-happie' but im not happie mood~! God promised me gd results but den at this moment im faithless...e weakness of man reflected once again! im sorrie God but can you tell me how i shld react now?!?! i need some encouragement..i need somebody to confide in...i jus feel so bloody needy now! FREAK! *feeling so blue* & Monokuro Boo ;
8:14 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007 tired but fulfilling week...3 papers down...wif 2 more to go...by God's grace...i noe that everything will turn out fine! haha...I jus need to do my best n God (aka my best fren!) will take care of e rest! by faith many things haf happened....boils down a simple fact that i derived at once again...'expect e unexpected...wif love frm God above' hahaha...funnie as it may sound...but its true alrite! if you live by faith and not by sight...seriously your life will get turned upside down in a gd way! i guess jus dun be too rational in things that you do...sumtimes irrationality will get you further den you tink! do wat you love...dun live in regret! dun tink too much...speak whatever that is up in your mind...u nv noe wat is gg 2 happen if you dun take a chance! haha...dis post is getting rather random! but dis is wat u get frm a person who haf been doing 'culture' for e entire aftn...exams exams exams....quick get done n over with it! ive got some many things waiting for me to do...*emotional state: high *haha* & Monokuro Boo ;
12:24 AM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007 you really know something is very wrong when it is the exam period and you DUN WANNA STUDY! damn it! all i wanna do is slack ard...play my keyboard....go out for coffee chilling sessions...im jus reading my notes...not even memorising anything! oh God...you hafta save me! i dun wanna flung but i dun wanna study very hard either...im way pass that phase....to put it nicely you call it 'attained nirvana'..to put it bluntly you say 'digging your own grave'....when the exam is done...i say it will be 'jumping into my own grave'....when the results are out....it better not be 'burying myself'....HAHAHAH....*i find myself getting very lame at night* & Monokuro Boo ;
11:42 PM
Monday, April 02, 2007 sometimes i wonder...'should i try to do smthg'...but den everytime when i really wanna try to do smthg about it...time and again i will jus feel that its pointless because it is not realli within my control! having the little 'perfectionist' mentality in me...i only attempt to do things that i can guarantee some degree of success eventually...if i cant...den i simply wun place my effort in such a game of risk! life is a game...so play it well! im never a gal who is easily satisfied! and perhaps you may not agree...but i hafta say that i expect a lot from e pple i care about....and i expect even more from myself...a lot of times i dislike seeing pple who dun gif a damn about e things ard them..it simply pisses me off to see pple whom i care about wasting their lives away...in e past, i get realli affected..but seriously..been there and done that! now i dun realli care you noe...its entirely your business if you choose to lead certain kind of life! defense mechanism you may call it...maybe 1 day i'll disagree with wat i say here...but for now im jus indifferent.. & Monokuro Boo ;
12:43 AM
