Saturday, October 20, 2007 its amazing how the human mind works...or at least i am quite puzzled by how mine work...i hate it when i get controlled by the emotional side of my mind...when i feel i shld be rationalising stuff..i tend to let my emotions get e better of me! why upset? cant exactly say its a particular reason...but rather an interplay of factors...i need time off...from everything in life...perhaps even time off frm being myself..and actually who am i to begin with? im beginning to wonder...sometimes i ask myself W-H-Y? why am i so fortunate that i dun understand what it is like to be unfortunate?why am i still complaining that im so fortunate?why do i get all the things i want in life until this time round?why does God have to let things turn to this extent?...everything happens for a reason...but what is the reason(s)? i really feel like im being sentenced without a trial...this is absolutely tiring... 
